His Rejection Killed (ON HOLD)

Chapter Ten

I'm stressed and upset and mad right now. But I tried to put all of those emotions in this chapter. Hopefully you guys can feel those emotions as you read through this...

ANYWAYS

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UPDATE AS OF 11/20: ON HOLD UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE

"Esther."

The way he breathed my name so quietly sent shivers down my back. It was almost as if he was scared that I wasn't really there.

And I wasn't. I was something more savage. Something I didn't want to be.

"What are you doing here?" My eyes twitched as his girlfriend, Cera, spoke. Her sickly sweet voice and calm tone did nothing but anger my beast. But I couldn't help but wish I was like her. How can she be nice to me? 

"What are you doing here?" Antonio repeated. The shock and longing gone from his eyes. I remained silent as I watched him. Hatred soon covered his face as he stared down at me.

My useless presence had angered him.

So I laughed. I laughed at the thought of ever being anything but a useless monster.

"Why are you here?"

Maybe if I knew that I was better off not knowing, I wouldn't have asked.

"We live here."

They lived here.

My  father lived here.

They knew my father...

And as if God needed to prove just how cruel He is; my father walked through the door.

There he was.

Shouting Cera's name.

He looked happy--as if he slept well last night. As if he hadn't left me on the forest floor.

"Esther..."

He knew my name--he knew about me. And yet he had abandoned me.

I wish he knew nothing about me. I didn't want him to know my name because then that would mean I really was unwanted.

I had forgotten about Antonio and Cera, my worst nightmare was standing in front of me.

"Why?"

Why did you leave us? Why didn't you love us--love me.

"How?"

How do you know my name? How can you live with yourself?

"Esther, please--" he whispered as he reached out for me.

"Please what? Listen to you? Accept that you never wanted me? I can't do that." I said backing away from his reach.

"You left me alone in the forest--unconscious. Don't ever tell me you care about me." I spat.

"What was leaving me at birth not enough? You don't want me now either..?" my body burned as hatred washed over me. 

"How did you sleep at night knowing you left your baby girl? How could you eat? How could you live not even caring about me--about my health?" My voice cracked as I held my chest; trying to stop the ache in my heart.

"I didn't abandon you. I sent your mother money every month. You both never struggled and I made sure of that. I was the one who put the clothes on your back and food on your table. I took care of you." It was almost as if he was proud of himself.

"You took care of me..."

I wish he would understand what I wanted wasn't his money--I wanted him.

"I needed you and you were never there. You threw my mother away like she was trash and then you threw me away. Why? Why couldn't you just love us?" My voice cracked as I looked in his eyes--my eyes.

"Was somebody else better than us-" 

"Were we not enough?" I didn't let him answer as every ounce of resolve I had left disappeared.

I was no longer strong. Even the beast within became numb as my emotions raged.

"She hurt me daddy--" My sobs echoed in the room as I let everything go. I confided in a man who caused all my pain.

"And you weren't there to protect me." 

Tears fell from his eyes as he once again tried to reach out to me. 

"Esther...I didn't know." He whimpered as he fell to his knees in front of me. 

Bitterness filled my core as I watched him gravel. Of course he didn't know, he was never there. 

"Dad, what is going on?"  Cera whispered.

My eyes snapped to her watching as she looked at the man in front of me.

Dad?

He was her dad.

He had failed to take care of me, but that never mattered to him. Because he was taking care of Cera. He had tucked her in at night, read her storytales, watched her grow...Of course he didn't need another girl. His baby girl was right in front of him the whole time. I was just a mistake. A mistake with a women whom he never even loved. 

I sucked in a breath as he stood--looking at Cera. 

"Cera.." he voice broke. 

"Go get your mother. I have something I need to tell you both."