His Rejection Killed (ON HOLD)

Chapter Thirteen

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Chapter Thirteen

The door came crashing down by the time I had blinked and by the time I opened my mouth I was in his arms.

That's not what I was excepting —I thought he would turn around and walk away. I thought I had finally given him what he wanted. But here he was, once again ruining my life.

"What do you want Antonio?" I whispered. I could barely speak without shivering; the feeling of being in his arms had put me under his spell.

His arms tightened around me, it was like he didn't want to let go. But the thing is he had— he had let me go a long time ago. I was the one who was trying to hold onto him before. I had held on so tight that I had lost myself. And here he was...

Doing something that I had wanted from him so long ago.

And maybe if he apologized, or even begged, I would forgive everything he had ever done. I would stay.

Except that's not what happened. Instead he continued to tear me apart.

"Just because I don't want you doesn't mean I don't need you. You will stay here until I don't feel like looking at you anymore. You will do what I tell you to do because even if I'm not yours, you're mine." His voice was rough. It sounded deep and angry; I knew it wasn't him speaking but his wolf.

I wasn't a choice to them but a necessity; something they needed to stay sane, to stay powerful. Neither of them loved me, us—and they never will. It was a fact that I had acknowledged a long time ago, but it still hurts.

His arms, that were just seconds ago confusing me, burned. I wanted to disappear, leave him forever.

Why did it have to be him?

"You know, even when it hurts like hell, I still love you. "

"Do you know how much it hurts? I just want you to take away the pain. Can't you love me? Even a little bit?" I sounded pathetic, I wasn't supposed to be the one begging.

I don't know how much more I can take.

The thought brought more tears to my eyes. Everything was blurry as I tried to break free from him. Even that hurt. Knowing he was holding me— I could touch him, but I couldn't have him.

"It doesn't make sense? Why do I have to love you so much? Why do I have to do this; feel this way over and over again?"

I don't know how long I had to keep telling him I was tired before he finally understood. I couldn't watch him walk away from me anymore.

"I just one reason...." to live.

I closed my eyes letting my tears drip down my face. I wanted them to wash away the pain.

"You need to— have to, let me go." My voice shook as I sobbed.

"Please."

Please save me.

I shouldn't have ever moved here.

"I regret meeting you. Meeting my "family". It was all a mistake..." My legs gave out as I felt myself faint.

I regretted everything.

Darkness never felt better.

Except this time, I wasn't alone. There she was— my little demon. And she was beautiful. I felt safe, I never wanted to leave our little darkness. But no matter how far I was in my darkness, I could feel the tingles all over my body. I could feel Antonio's touch. I could never escape him.

I didn't know how lonely the world was until I met him. He was the most painful thing in my life.

How many more times did I have to faint because of him?