Forgive me in Honfleur

filming

*Few days later*

POV Joe

- Hey, Hopie, wanna film? - I asked, getting upstairs. She didn't reply. - Hopie? - I asked again.
- Oh, sorry. Yeah, sure. - Hope smiled, answering. She likes when we film together, so do I, but she wasn't really in the mood for filming or something. - I'll get down in a few minutes.- She stayed upstairs for some time, so when she came to my room, I was setting the lighting.
Then, when I set the camera as well and started a video, she came in shot.

- Hello everyone! So I didn't have much time for ideas because of the jetlag and...
- Hey, buddy! Mind if I stay here? - Hope asked. I made a surprised weird-looking face, pretending like I don't want her here, and I could say she almost laughed.
I really wanted her around me for some reason.
- ...Okay?
- Cool. - She laughed just when I started talking, so I needed to start again. She doesn't interrupt me in real life, that's just something she likes to do in a video.

- So, I was about to film a simple Q&A, cause we've just arrived, but as someone came in here, - I stopped, acting again, even if I was the one who invited her.
- Sorry. - She looked down with a silly regreting face. - I just need more subscribers. - She cried out, looking straight into the camera. I laughed. It's not real, obviously, just jokes.
- You're just like Caspar. - I signed, pretending I'm crying. - Everyone uses me! - Hope hugged me, saying it's okay and we continued to film.

- So, I tweeted for you to ask us questions, not even dares, cause Hope is too lazy to stand up. - She shrugged, smiling, and waved into the camera.
- That's me. I am the reason why you won't see Joe hurting himself for more views. - I laughed, continuing. Hope looked at me with a huge smile. She's so beautiful.
- But I don't think you've finished reading my tweet. You've sent us even more dares than something simple like "do you have both of your legs?" I thought...
- Wait, do you have both of your legs? - Hope asked me. - You haven't answered them. - I saw her, trying not to smile or anything because the question was pretty stupid. At moments like this, she's annoyingly cute.

- Of course, I do! Jesus, why did I even let you in? - I asked myself more than her even if this is not what I was thinking about. She knows it's just jokes, that's one of the reasons why I like being friends with her so much.
- Stop! I'm feeling Oli now! - I laughed so bad I had to lay on a bed not to fall from it.
- That was the funniest thing I've ever heard! - She smiled widely, probably being proud of herself. 
- Now, leave. - She pouted playfully and I apologized, smiling.
- By the way, - she looked into the camera, - I have both of my legs too.

While I was reading my question, Hope was about to pick a few more to herself. I already started to talk, when was interrupted by her as usual.

- So, Bobbie Sugg asking...
- Oh. My. God. So many shippers! Oh, sorry. - She showed some screenshots to me and I laughed again. The one was pretty rude about Hopie, something like "he just feels bad when she begs him about collabing, lol" and stuff, and I hoped that she won't take it seriously. I know her, I know that she's a great person and usually she just laugh at hate stuff, but sometimes she brakes. I've never seen her like this, until once. I was pretty drunk but remembered it somehow.

I came home at 1 pm and I couldn't find her. She stays with us some days and that one was one of them. I found her in my bathroom, silently crying. I tried asking some questions, but she stayed silent. I couldn't do much, so I hugged her and stayed with her till the morning. For the whole night, she didn't say anything but one sentence.
"They hate me and I deserve it." I barely heard her - she whispered so quietly. I tried to talk to her, tried to convince her that no one hates her and she's done nothing to deserve it, but she stayed speechless. I lifted her from the floor and brought into bed. She didn't ask me to, but I stayed with her until she fell asleep. We've never spoken about it after, not sure why, but I don't want to start a conversation about something she doesn't want to talk about. Maybe she's not sure if I remember anything. Maybe she doesn't think about it too much.
She started to read some tweets she found and I decided not to put it in the video even if that would be hilarious.

- Do you live together with Caspar and Joe?
- Sometimes.
- Are you dating?
- We're not, but we could.
- Are you fighting a lot?
- We're not.
- Are you flirting a lot?
- We're not.
- Are you sleeping together?
- We are. No, wait, actually, we're not. - I smiled at her answer. Sassy. To be honest, it was a lie, because sometimes we do. For example, when she has nightmares or when I stay at hers too drunk or tired to move.
- Have you ever had sex together?
- We haven't. Should we? - She asked me, smirking. I laughed and couldn't make myself to answer.
- Is he good in bed?
- Yes, he is. I can say it by the moans of different girls, he brings when he thinks I'm asleep. Oh, and by Caspar's moans in the morning shower, obviously. - I was pretty surprised about some questions. They were so personal! - Don't put it in the video! - Hope looked at me, laughing.
- This is going to be the first time I won't do this. - I laughed with her. She smiled at me and I'm pretty sure I gave her one of those looks everyone talks about.

- And now, some dares. - I started. - Tyler Oakley asking us to come out. Well, Tyler, I know that...
- I'm bisexual. - Hope said calmly. I was... pretty surprised, cause she never told me about it and she tells me everything.
- No way! Why didn't you tell me?! - I exclaimed, smiling, letting Hope know that she doesn't have to worry about it. It's a fact, right, but it doesn't change anything.

- I don't know. I think it's just not that big of a deal for me. -  She shrugged.

- Well, guys, I have something to tell you also. - Hope was silently waiting, I think she wasn't sure if I was joking or not.

- I'm straight. - I looked down and made a dramatic pause. Soon enough, both Hope and me burst out laughing. - Alright, next question.  - I chuckled. 

- Wait! - Hope exclaimed. - Does this mean that I can joke about having a crush on your best friend's sister? - Hope asked curiously. I moaned, looking up.

- Oh no! Not the two of you! - I made her laugh and smiled because of it, closing my eyes.

- Okay. Now, it's my turn. Alfie Days dare us to kiss! - She laughed. - I'm kidding. We won't do this. - She looked straight to the camera. - At least, on camera. - Yeah, she definitely likes to tease the shippers.

- Right. The next one is...

We stopped filming around 8 pm. I was pretty jetlaged, so Hope advised me to go to bed, which was the thing I did. I quickly fell asleep, thinking about editing and deciding if I want to leave Jopie moments in it. I think I'm going to give it to Hopie, so she could make a bloopers video or something and upload it to her second channel.

Well, all of it for tomorrow.

Hellooooo :)

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