how to handle a jerk

c h a p t e r ♤19

I keep my head down, not wanting to acknowledge the voice. 

"I know you heard me," The voice continues, coming closer.

"Don't come any closer," I manage to say without my voice wavering.

"Yoona, I-"

I hold out my hand, looking up at him. "Stop."

"Can you at least let me try to explain?"

We stare at each other for what feels like eternity.

"Fine."

His face turns relieved and he sits down at the table.

"I see you got the macaroons again," He smiles.

"I don't have all day, Sehun. Explain."

He takes a deep breath.

"What you heard about the bet; it's true."

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and I hated it. Why was I so sensitive about this?

"It was a stupid bet that I made in sophmore year with my friend. I kept it going to this year just for fun and yes, our relationship started based on the bet."

I averted my gaze away from him, cursing at myself for putting my hair up because I can't cover my face with my hair when I cry.

He takes a deep breath before continuing. 

"But...in the midst of our fake relationship, I...fell in love with you."

"You were so...different. I just didn't know I could feel this way about someone before. I mean, you know the story of my parents. I kinda disregarded everything and tried to numb the pain of separation. I admit, I tried to numb it in kind of the worst way, but it just happened."

"I even took you here, this place, which is kind of a special place to me. I've never brought anyone. Not even Kai or Luhan. But I brought you because I trusted you. Trusted you with what? I don't know. I just trusted you."

"And I know you trusted me, and I broke that trust. I should've told you all about this and explained it like I did and maybe we would've still had our relationship, except we could've gone on having a real one. But we could still have that. If you would want to."

He stays silent, awaiting my answer.

"I...I need some time to think, please." I manage to spit out.

"Of course. You can come to me whenever. I'll be there for you." He says before standing up and walking away.

I slump down in my seat, blowing away the flyways from my face.

What a situation you put me into, Oh Sehun.
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I think I need to control my anger. I shouldn't have walked out. I should've stayed, maybe calm down a little in my room, but then working it out with Yuri and Seohyun.

I stood in front my dorm door hesitantly. I place my hand on the handle, but I didn't open it. I sighed. Might as well confront the problem instead of running away like I always do.

I opened the door. The living room was empty and so was the kitchen. I guess they're in their rooms. I make my way to my own room, falling onto my bed once I get there.

I manage to screw up every good thing in my life. Maybe I'll just sleep this off, I'm pretty tired anyways. I changed into my pajamas and snuggled up into my bed, starting to watch some YouTube before I fall asleep.

A heard a quiet knock on my door a few minutes after and I scrambled out of my bed. I place my phone on my desk and rush to open my door.

I open it to see Yuri with Seohyun standing behind her.

"Are you still mad at us?" She asks.

"Only if you're not mad at me for overreacting," I respond, looking down.

"No, you had a good reason to react that way," Seohyun shakes her head.

"Still, I shouldn't have reacted that way," I sigh.

"Here, let's talk in the living room.
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"So, I saw Sehun today."

"You did?"

"Where?"

"Well, when I got mad at you guys, I just started walking. I ended up at this little café he took me to once. I saw him there."

"And?"

"What happened?"

"Well, I guess we "talked" for a little bit. He explained to me the whole situation. You knoe, the bet and stuff."

"Ooh! So are you getting back together?"

"I don't know. I don't know if I can trust him again, but I gotta let my heart decide."

"That sounded deep."

I chuckle. "Well, the other thing I wanted to tell you was...my mother has cancer."

They both gasp.

"Yoona, why didn't you tell us sooner?"

"I don't know, I-. I guess I wasn't ready to tell anybody yet."

"So, that's why you left for you after the whole Sehun thing?"

"Yeah, I just needed to be away from everything and I decided my parents was the best."

"So, what's gonna happen? Is your mom getting treatment?"

I shake my head. "They found my mom's cancer in it's last stages. It's too late to start treatment."

"So, she's gonna...die?"

I take a deep breath. "Yeah."

They both rushed over to me and wrapped me in their arms. I couldn't stop my tears from flowing out of my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Yoona," Yuri says.

"It's not your fault."

"But still," Seohyun chimes in.

"I guess I should've told you guys earlier."

"It's okay, you weren't ready to tell us."

"It's just-"

I was cut off from my phone ringing.

"Sorry, let me answer this," I say before hitting the answer button.

"Hello?"

"Yoona! Come quick!"