piece of cake

our little secret

-2 weeks past-

cara didnt keep her word about not thinking of me differently theses past two weeks, the more time passed the more pressure i was under to 'not be single'. my mom kept bugging me about it kylie kept bugging me about it my other sisters kept bugging me about it every one was...

me and cara had a weird thing going.. she was still a bitch to me when people were around, but most of the time when we were alone she wasnt a total bitch

well she was if she found out i went out with jay or something but .i think secretly she was jealouse.

that whole 'i slept with jay' thing blew over in like two days.

i took hime back 4 days after.

after i took him back cara hasn't spoken to me since and i cant handle it its pure hell

********flash back********

i drove to work thinking about last night. i had a argument with my mom in the end she made me get back with jay, i have never been depressed but i think this what it felt like.. i didnt feel like doing anything.

i walked into caras office harry was there "good morning" harry said i nodded and sat down

cara walked over to me from her desk she stood infront of her desk i could tell by her body launge she was mad it was like the 'madness' was pouring off of her i dont beilive in energy or auras but she had a over whelming mad engery..

" good-" she cut me off "why the fuck did you take jay back?" she said with every ounce of that mad energy " cara-" i sighed but she cut me off " dont try and explain to me kendall..you said-you told me-" i cut her off "i know...i know i told you im sorry..i had to do this cara..i had to " i said 'thats bullshit!" she said " cara-" harry said but she cut him off "leave harry i need to talk to kendall" she said he left shrugging she faced me again " dont lie to me kendall..you may not espect me enough to treat me fairly but you will respect me enough as your boss to tell me the truth" she said in the meanest tone i have herd from her it made me feel small and second guess myself " im not lying cara im in a difficult position!" i almost begged her

" i dont know why your this mad. are you jealouse or-" she cut me off "im not..jealouse" she said in a tone that was so calm yet filled with anger " yes you are!" i said getting pissed off "no-" i cut her off "yes you are- you are cara just-" she cut me off "okay!!" she said in that same tone making me feel even smaller

"im jealouse...fuck kendall you got me." she said in a sarcasticly happy tone i stayed silent she got closer " do you know why?" she asked i shook my head 'no' 

" if told you to fuck him.. you would-if he pulled down his pants you would suck his dick...and hell, he will brag about it the next day treating you like shit. it took him maybe two weeks to sleep with you, and you act like im trying to hurt you..you fucking act like im one thats been telling every one what we do-i havnt said a word to anyone!! he has been telling every one everything not respecting you, or even being a nice person!!! " she ranted with that same intimidating tone looking at me
she scuffed and paced around slowly  "but yeah kendall..im jealouse at the fact that he has seen you naked time and time again and like i have said in the past he dosnt disserve to even talk to you...let alone any of the other shit he has managed to do with you" she scuffed not looking at me as if she was thinking out loud

she scuffed  " dont talk to me..." she muttered looking away "cara-" she cut me off "i told you dont tak to me go fuck jay...i dont care" she said in the same mean tone

tears gathered in my eyes

she left

tears rolled off my cheeks as her word replayed in my head