Meadow's Roses

29: Devil

Billie laugh as she dance in the water.

She kick the water.

Splashing someone water.

Billie walk further into the water.

She was holding sunflowers.

"Bye." She said waving at the person.

She was smiling.

Suddenly there was a loud banging.

Billie had fallen asleep in the tub.

It was only a dream.

She was dreaming.

She open her eyes wide and breath in hard the water.

Some of the water went inside her nose and ears.

She threw a hand up in the air trying to sit up.

She made it.

She was okay.

She was going to be okay.

The water made bubble as Billie choke with the water.

"Are you okay Billie?" Shouted Isaac from outside the bathroom.

She held onto the sides of the tub to help her sit up.

She cough.

The mirror across the tub show Billie's pale face.

Her eyes were red from crying.

"Billie!" Isaac shouted from outside.

"I'm okay." She reply between coughs.

Billie hear her cellphone vibrate against her vanity.

She gave it a quick glance.

Elijah read the caller ID.

She ignore the call and continue combing her hair.

"I'm disgusted."

"I'm stupid."

"I'm a bitch."

"It's my fault."

"I'm a sick human."

Billie said to her reflection in the mirror.

She blink three times before she began to cry again.

Billie wipe her tears with the sleeve of her robe.

"You're pathetic Billie." Billie said to herself.

AAAhhhhhh! Billie scream before throwing everything off her vanity table.

Billie got up and pick up one of her favorite Chanel perfumes.

She study the bottle before throwing it against the mirror attached to her vanity table.

The mirror crack before coming crumbling down.

She didn't flinch.

She took a step back.

"Fuck." Billie hiss

"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." Billie hiss again once she look down to her feet.

She sat down on the floor looking at the bottom of her foot.

She had stepped on glass.

Without hesitation she pull the piece of glass out of her skin.

"Ouch!"

Blood drip down.

Billie ran her hands up and down her face.

Her face was completely red.

Billie lay down on the floor of her bedroom starring at the ceiling.

She cry.

"God help me!" Billie scream.

"How I despise myself right now."

Billie got up wobbly and walk into her connected bathroom.

"Where are they?"

"Bingo." Said Billie as she found a pair of scissor's.

She part her hair down the middle before grabbing a hand full of hair.

"Bye... Bye."

"You can do it."

She close her eyes hesitantly before chopping her hair.

She open them again and look at the marble floor.

Her long blonde locks were now on the floor.

She repeated the same step for the rest of her hair.

Billie had a messy bob haircut.

"Better."

Billie threw her robe on the floor before getting in the tub again.

This was the first time she wonder how did people who commit suicide had the will power to do it?

How did they do it?

How did they have the heart to leave everything behind?

Their family, friends, or anything they had!

The water was tinted with red because of Billie's wound.

Billie close her eyes hard before ducking into the water.

She wants to know how long can she hold her breathe for?

Five.. Ten.. Twelve... Fifteen... Twenty one... Twenty seven seconds.

Billie could only hold her breathe for twenty seven seconds.

She resurface again.

Billie breathe hard and fast.

She was okay.

"You're okay Billie." Billie told herself.

"You're going to be okay."

She was going to try that again.

Her objective is to hold her breathe for a minute.

She had too.

She close her eyes as the water rise up covering her mouth.

You have too Billie. Billie thought to herself.

Everything is going to be alright.

You're going to be okay.

You're okay princess.