Adopted By Sleeping With Sirens

My Talk With Mr. Quinn

I sat on Justin's lap still and looked over to Kellin, he looked so hurt and broken since we have been fighting, I have not had a real conversation with him since Katelyn was here. Kellin stood up and tapped me on the shoulder, I looked up to him and he gave me a shy smile.

"Can we talk?" Kellin asked as he played with his hands nervously. Slowly I nodded my head and stood up, Justin grabbed my wrist lightly and I looked down to him.

"Are you going to be ok?" He asked me. I nodded my head and followed Kellin to the bunk room. He closed the door and motioned for me to sit beside him. I took the seat and looked everywhere but at him.

"I'm sorry." He whispered out. "I'm so sorry about what I said, I didn't mean any of it. I'm so fucking sorry about everything that I have done since I got you, you didn't deserve any of this. I'm so fucking sorry that I have fucked up so fucking much and I just want you to be happy. I'm so sorry that I made you like this and that I broke you, I can see it in your eyes. I fucked up and I'm so sorry that I couldn't even keep a fucking promise to you and I have messed up so bad. I just want you to like me again, I don't care if I can never be a dad to you, I lover you so fucking much that I fucking hurts to know that you wanted to leave. I'm so so so so so sorry that I fucked up and made you want to leave me forever, that was never my intention. I never wanted you to leave or get rid of you, I want us to be a family and have a loving relationship with each other. I love you so much and I don't want to lose you." Kellin said as he started to sob. The tears streamed down his face as he looked at me. Tears of my own were building up in my eyes as I listened to him talk.

"I love you too. I never wanted to leave, but I thought you didn't want ms anymore. I thought it would be better for everyone if I was gone. I love you so much and your the closed thing to a dad I have ever had besides Ronnie." I said as the tears poured down my face like a waterfall. He pulled me into a hug as we both cried like the children we were. He pulled me closer to his chest and I was sitting on his lap as I balled my eyes out. Kellin slowly stopped crying but the tears wouldn't stop for me.

"Please stop crying, I'm sorry. I love you so stop crying. You are my everything and nothing will ever change that. I love you so fucking much that it hurts to know I made you upset and mad at me." Kellin said as he gently rocked me back and forth on his lap. "Shhhh, it's going to be ok. Everything will be ok. I love you so nothing will be bad like this again. You're my baby girl, stop crying, beautiful girls don't need to cry." He said as I clung to his shirt for dear life.  He was my life line in a way. He could make me or break my without even realizing it. My grip on his shirt loosened as I slowly took my head away from his chest.

"I'm ok now." I said as I moved my self away from his grip. He slowly let me go and released me from his death grip. I looked up to him and saw he was smiling like an idiot, the smile broke out across my face too. "What are you smiling about?" I asked him with a light hearted laugh.

"I love you so much, you are so beautiful and I don't wanna lose you." He mumbled to me. I smiled wider. "I can't believe that someone like you got stuck with someone like me. You're really to good for me, to be in my life, you make everything better when you walk in the room. It feels like I have known you for years and that you are a daughter by blood to me." He said with a smile and twinkle in his eye.

"You and all of the band members are all I have left now, I never had anyone really jn the beginning and it feels so much better to know someone cares about you and what you think of the world. I love you so much and I don't want to lose you again. I don't want to fight anymore, at least no more big fights anymore." I said with a light hearted chuckle at the last part.

"I love you more than I could ever scream, I don't want to fight like this ever again either." He said as he pulled me into a huge hug. "I love you so so so so much, you don't even know how happy you make me and how much of a better person you made me become." He said as he talked into my hair. I loved the feeling if being safe in someone's arms and not having to worry about dieing the next second because of something you did to make them upset. I hugged him back as I felt tears come to my eyes again. They rolled down my cheeks as the emotions over powered my body.

"I love you too. You will never understand how much you mean to me, I have become a better person because of you. I'm sorry that I got so upset, but I thought that you were going to be the one who keeps me." I said as I looked down in embarrassment. He rubbed my back as we sat on the bed and I cried against his chest. He played with the ends of my hair and murmured sweet nothings into my ears as I let the tears flow down my cheeks. I hated to admit it, but I have come to love this whole crazy fucked up family of mine. It's a wild thought to believe that your idols adopted you and you met then and now there your family for good. I love them and I know they love me too.

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