A Secret Vow

14 The Clock

I run toward the middle of the bathroom. Panicking to stop the ticking bomb of shame.

I fall to the ground and my arms scramble the floor in search for my undergarments.

Naked.

My eyes so focused, ready to split any moment. Gushing out embarrassment.

Find your undergarments. Find them.

My eyes turn back as I hear the door creep open. Feeling as though a madman was behind those doors with a machete. Torturing me with ever sound it made.

Step.

I chock my briefs. Trembling, I attempt to slip them on.

My hands look like they have been injected with an extreme drug. Constantly twitching.

Every breath felt forced and heavy. Like a constant punch to the gut. Ripping out pieces of me one by one. Gasping for air.

"Hello?"

My eyes are splitting. It's shameful blood is dripping all over my naked body. I feel the blood trickle down my breasts, down my stomach, and dripping off my vagina.

I instantly cover my breasts.

The door opens.

"I am so sorry "

My lips slowly part.

"Do you need help?"

It's Ida.

I breathe out like I've been holding in air. I lost control of my jaw. My eyes so still.

She stood there in shock.

My hands still shaking on my breasts.

"My lady...are you alright? Do you need some assistance?" she hesitantly asks me.

I take a few steps back and almost slip on water. I finally noticed all the hair covering my face. I breathed in and out. I looked down and noticed my undone briefs. Exposing the upper region of my vagina.

I felt my face burn.

"Ma..am I could help you..." she insisted.

"Turn around!" I commanded her.

She is facing the white wall.

I quickly dress myself in my nightgown. I felt the cool white linen comfort me. I noticed the large falling collar of exquisite lace and the square front. I felt the deeply embedded lace, trimmed into the hem and at the elbows. I looked down at the white ribbon threaded throughout the dress and felt the ruffles of the short sleeves. I looked at the three white buttons on the square front.

I touch the first fastened button.

"Ida" I call, still looking down at the button.

"Yes my lady?" she replies. Still confused about what just happened.

I drop my hand. I look up at her.

She slowly turns around.

"Where is Edmund?" I slowly ask her.

She looks at me for a few seconds. I noticed she does that a lot.

"I saw him in a hurry" she says.

"Where was he?" I ask again.

I watch her eyes. Her eyes are hiding something, I just don't know what it is yet.

"I was walking with laundry and saw him at your door. He suddenly walked away from the door completely flushed and in panic. He told me to check up on you" she explained.