His lips were soft. I couldn't believe that I was kissing the boy that I never thought I would even meet. We pulled away and were silent for a few minutes as we lay on my lime green comforter. I finally spoke up.
"Hey Shawn?
"Yea?" He said, his voice scratchy and adorable
"Can you sing me a song?" I said, hoping he would.
He sighed. "So you know who I am?"
"Um... Yeah. When I was 16 all I wanted was to meet you."
"I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want you telling everyone who I was. Since you didn't know, I didn't want to say anything. I'm sorry. What do you want me to sing?" He asked grabbing his guitar and strumming a little.
"Anything you want." I said smiling.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I... am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I... will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I... will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something..."
He finished singing and I leaned forward and kissed him again. He pulled me close as we lay down. He put his guitar and we fell asleep in each other's arms.
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I woke up first the next morning. I heard someone rifling through and walking around. I woke up Shawn and he heard it too. He creeped over to my door. He looked in his doorway.
"Bella?" He asked, seeing his ex going through his clothes in his closet. "What the hell are you doing?"
"Taking back everything I ever gave to you." She said pulling out a green flannel and ripping it in half. "I think that's it. She said, walking out and grabbing the coffee maker on her way out.
"Well that's a way to wake up." Shawn said.
I giggled. "Damn it. I really need coffee!"
"Shawn put on some clothes and grabbed his coat. "I'll go to Starbucks and get us coffee. What do you want?"
I told him my order and he was out the door. I decided to try the guitar. I hadn't played in a year or two but I knew a few songs. I strummed and decided to play my favorite of Shawn's songs- A Little Too Much.
I started singing. "She would not show that she was afraid,
But being and feeling alone was too much to face,
Though everyone said that she was so strong,
What they didn't know is that she could barely carry on,
But she knew that she would be okay,
So she didn't let it get in her way,
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much,
She would always tell herself she could do this
She would use no help it would be just fine
But when it got hard she would lose her focus
So take my hand and we'll be alright
And she knew that she would be okay
So she didn't let it get in her way,
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much, yeah.
A little too much, I said a little too much, oh.
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much yeah!
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much." I saw Shawn in the doorway. I hadn't even heard him come in.
"You never told me you sang" he said, smiling and handing me my coffee.
"I don't really sing. Just in the shower or when no ones around"
"Well you should. You're amazing!"
I smiled and drank my coffee.
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I know I haven't updated in a while!!! I've been so busy I promise I will try to update. Is anyone else going to msg, cause I am! I'm so excited to hear illuminate and also vote for Shawn to perform at the super bowl here: http://www.maximumpop.co.uk/vote-who-should-perform-at-the-super-bowl-in-2017/ we need Shawn to perform! Again sorry I haven't updated but love u guys
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