Our Hate: Camila and Shawn

Chapter 10: Wedding Wishes

TEN

Camila

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I feel really guilty about what happened. I even missed the wedding practice because I couldn't bear the thought of seeing Shawn again, even though I know that it was all my fault. Everything is my fault and everything will always be my fault. I know that I HAVE to get married but I can't face anyone or anything right now. The wedding is tomorrow but this just seems too hard. The only thing I did was get the wedding dress and the bridesmaid's dress' fitted.

My bridesmaid's are going to be Lauren, Ally, Dinah, Normani and Taylor. Sofi is going to be my little Maid of Honour and the flower girl is to be Aaliyah - Shawn's sister.  Shawn sent me a picture of the cake and I must say that it looks really romantic and exactly like the design Shawn and I worked on over Skype.

I loved it so much. I know that Ian - Shawn's friend from Toronto - is going to be the Best Man and that Austen and the boys from The Vamps were going to be groomsmen. I didn't know that Shawn was that close to them but then I guess that when we were on Austen's tour, Shawn couldn't really hang with us all the time. The ring bearer was chosen by Shawn so I don't know who they are.

I picked up my phone and dialled Shawn.

"Hello, Shawn. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it I would do anything to take it back. I'm so sorry," a jumbled mush came out my mouth and it came out as.

"HellShawnIsorrydidn'tanythigntakebacksoryy."

"What?"

"I love you."

"You what me?"

"I love you Shawn Peter Raul Mendes."

"You love me?"

"Yes. I love you."

"I...I... Can't," my heart shattered.

"What do you mean, you can't?"

"I can't love you."

"Why not?"

"I can't hurt myself anymore. I'm sorry. But that's the way." I hung up and tears started spilling down my cheek. I had to prove to him that I could love him and we wouldn't get hurt and I knew just how.

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"Ready girls?" everyone nodded their heads to say yes. This was going to work. It had to.

"Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid

To fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died every day

waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

Time stands still

beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

Take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died every day

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

I have died every day

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid,

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more.

"I love you Shawn and I will never stop loving you." I stopped recording and pressed post. I had just posted this on Fifth Harmony's YouTube page.

Seconds later, harmonizers started posting comments and I loved them all. I know that lots and lots of people had posted this onto Shawn's Twitter, Instagram and Snapchat. It made me smile because I knew that Shawn had to have seen it and it was confirmed by this Instagram post.