Love wasn't on my bucket list (Complete)

Chapter Twenty

Chapter 20

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Anger. Sadness. Embarrassed

Angry with my mother for the childhood she provided me with

Sad for the way I have to treat her, but if I treat her any different she will be at my door again and again asking for money

Embarrassed Danny had to see something like that

I turn and hug her, pulling her into my chest. She is the only thing keeping me sane right now, keeping me from running after my mother to yell at her some more

"I'm sorry Danny, I'm so so sorry" I say into her lavender scented hair as a quiet steady stream of tears come from my eyes. I hate this women, it took me a long time to repair myself, repair Dolan from the damage she caused. Its unbelievable she can continue to do this to me

"It's okay. How about we go pack, say goodbye to the family and go home"

"I think that's a good plan" as I wipe the last tear off my cheek and grab Danny's hand as we walk up the stairs

"Love you hunny, we'll come down in a couple of months for a.. visit" George says to his daughter as he gives her one last hug

"See you then, bye daddy, Bye mom, I love you" she says hugging her mom

I hug her father and mother seeing as we have become fairly close, we pull away and I join Danny and her brother in the truck and watch as Danny waves goodbye to them, thinking in her mind this is the last goodbye they will ever have. I don't know what I can do for her, but I have to do something

It's been about a month since we returned from her parents home and I have been researching cardiothoracic surgeons in Canada all day while Danny is out with Lucy at their Spanish class.

So far I have seen the name Dr. Evans regarding Cardiac sarcomas more than once and begin to write an email with an inquiry regarding Danny's condition

'Hello, Dr. Evans I am contacting you in regards to my girlfriend Danielle Mendoza. She has been diagnosed with a stage 4 cardiac sarcoma. She has been left with the choice of treatment or a heart transplant. She has been starting to have more bad than good days and I was wondering what you could do for us. We will fly to wherever you are for you to take a look, to help us. I have attached a digital copy of her scans and hope for a response as soon as possible.

Thank you for your time in advance'

I press send on the laptop and await a response, knowing I wont receive one within seconds

"Hello?" I hear the front door open and my angel walks through it

"I'm in here" I say, smiling and shutting the laptop computer

"I don't feel good" she says as she walks in and sits across the dinning room table from me

I take a moment to take a good look at her. Bags under her eyes, skin is a dangerous pale and most noticeably. The sparkle in her eyes are absent

"lets go watch a movie" I say to her, gently picking up her hand

"No, like I really don't feel good" she has this look in her eyes

"Should I call Lucy?" I say, slightly panicking

"It's time Lucas" she says, a tear brimming her eye

"No" I say, as I feel tears start to come to mine as well.

I collapse to my knees and hug her, she kneels down with me and for the first time I can see how sick she really looks

"Lucy is outside ready to take me to the hospital" she says, pulling my up by my hand

"I need to pack a bag; this isn't the end. Maybe I'll strike gold and there will be a heart available for me. I am second on the transplant list." she says this but you can tell she knows there's no hope

"Okay, well let's get a move on" I say, sticking a smile on my not so hopeful face

"I love you"