Chapter 21.
Regret should be the feeling I feel right now. Regret for not getting the treatment, regret for leaving so soon.
But I don't. I am so proud of the way I completed my life, but the one thing I do regret is the love I feel for Lucas. I have put him through so much and this will break him, he has been through so much pain in his life and I can't be the one to do the most damage
"Do you need something" He says by my bedside, or my death bed as many would say.
"No, I'm perfect the way I am" I say, grabbing his hand and bringing it to my pale dry lips.
He nods in content, but keeps his hand gripped to mine
We have been on the hospital for 2 days now, and they say I won't be going home unless I miraculously receive a donor heart
"Danielle? There's something I need to tell you and you can't freak out" Luke says from my side
"What.." I say, my voice trailing off in dread and uncertainty. Is he cheating on me? Oh my god he's already found someone else? I'm not even cold yet!
"I have contacted a cardiothoracic surgeon in Toronto and he has agreed to come across the country to perform an experimental surgery with a 50% chance success rate, only being performed less than 12 times. It's not a sure thing, and it comes with many risks. But its worth a shot. So, before you say no, I need you to think about it." He says wringing his hands. He's nervous.
"Yes" I say, no hesitation
What do I have to lose? A couple weeks? Big deal
"He can be here, prepped and ready in 3 days. I think we should call your family to come down here"
"Okay, I had planned on doing it anyway just not this soon. But I will call now" I say, reaching for the smart phone sitting on my tray table
"ow" I mutter, rubbing the skin above my chest.
"Take it easy" Luke says as he rubs my back and passes me my cell phone
I smile at the gesture and dial the phone number to my parents house.
"Hello? Danielle?" I hear my mother say, pleased to hear from me
"Hi mom"
"What is it Danny?"
"You guys have to come down, I don't have very long left and am having experimental surgery in 3 days" I plead, a tear unknowingly slipping from my eye
"Oh baby" I hear my mother choke back a sob
"where's dad? You need dad" I say, concern dripping from the tone in my voice
"He's in the kitchen, I will let him know what's going on. We will be there as soon as we can, I'll call your brother too. I love you Danielle" she says the last part as if it's the last time she'll be able to say that
"Love you too mom, see you soon"
I send a text to Derek with a simple
'It's time' and press send. He knows what I mean and will warn the others
My phone bings before I can put it back down
'Be there soon'
"I'm going to the bathroom, and to get a cup of coffee" Lucas says, putting down the book he is reading for a 3rd time
I nod and switch the channel from Oprah to the food network
The machine next to me picks up the rhythm as my heart starts to race.
I can't breathe. This has never happened before; I have had this chest pain but never been not able to breathe
I'm gasping for air as nurses and doctors rush in when everything fades to nothingness.
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Love wasn't on my bucket list (Complete)
RomansaDanielle was handed a death sentence with a side of true love She was diagnosed with an incurable disease and on the same tragic day, met the man of her dreams Lucas was the product of ambition and a broken home. Follow along as Lucas and Danielle w...
