Depressed Teen Journal

Stay

I used to be a quitter.
I used to fall in love just to give up.
I hated the idea of forever...
But I used to pray for the one. 

I found the perfect person for me and made flaws out of 'em.
I used to turn people into damaged goods.. and wonder why I was no good.
Then.. I would hurt.
I used to hurt people. I used to hate love.
I used to hate who I was.
I used to run from anything and everyone who seemed permanent.

I used to be scared of rejection or ending up neglected. but I'm not scared anymore.. call me naive but I don't care anymore.
about protecting my heart or loving too hard.

I'm okay with letting things fall in place the way that they're naturally supposed to.
and if that means eventually falling apart..
then I'm open to it.

I'm learning about the power in faith and how we attract people in our lives who think and act the same way..

Lately I've been praying for someone to stay. So I've decided that.. if anything at all..
I'll stay, too.

-Jess