Living the Dream

Fallen Hero

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I went straight up to my room when we got home. Partially because I wanted some me-time, and also because I did not feel like getting teased any more than I already had been...

Once in my room I plopped on my beloved bed and got on twitter.

Jess *thinking* "Wow! So many @replies about the Radio Disney interview! That's crazy! I didn't think that many would tune in...

You know, to this day I am still surprised at how closely some fans follow our lives. No matter where we go, they always know we are coming and where we are going next....it's kinda creepy but also just really cool to have so many people be interested in us. I don't like it sometimes when all I wanna do is hang out with my family and we get interrupted by fans but then I remember that they are the ones that keep us going and then I don't mind as much. What really bothers the crappola outta me though are the paparazzi and I don't think I'll ever get used to them. My brothers are a lot better about them than I am, that's for sure.

Jess *scrolling through @replies, thinking* "Sheesh, so many @replies!" *squeals all of a sudden, does happy dance, drops phone*

Nick *pokes head in* "Are you OK?"

Jess *stops happy dance* "Perfectly awesomtastic!!"

Nick "Ohhhh kaaayyy." *walks in, plops on Jess' bed*

You're probably thinking, whoa didn't you just say you originally wanted me-time? Yes, I did. But Nick doesn't really count...90% of the time, if I want me-time, it means I want no one around me but if Nick's there, that's alright. Because even if he's there, we just sit there together, or are even just in the same room together, but we don't talk. We just simply enjoy being in each other's presence.....with Joe and Kevin it doesn't work like that. They can't go two minutes without saying something, plus...I'd hate to say it, but...they're not my twins. I don't mean that in a mean way and I'm also not choosing favorites but there are certain things that just fall under the "twin privilege" category and me-time is one of them.

So why did I like totally lose it when I saw that one certain @reply earlier? Oh, no reason...just that it was from David Studmuffin Henrie himself!!!

I picked my phone up off the ground and plopped on my bed next to Nick.

Jess *rereading tweet*

[David_Henrie guess who I bumped into at Radio Disney today...literally :) @Jess Jonas]

I also noticed that David was following me now!

Jess *squeals*

Nick *looks at Jess*

Jess "Sorry." *grins like an idiot, thinking* What to write him back....be witty...ugh...wait...we're following each other now...so we can DM (Direct Message) each other, right? Hm...still, what to write...

I decided to just send him a public reply since I didn't have anything profound to tell him anyway...

[jessjonas bumped into @David_Henrie today...you'd think he would use a spell to keep from crashing into people but nooo #fakewizardalert]

[David_Henrie @jessjonas shhh you know my mom doesn't like me to use magic around town]

Jess *giggles*

Nick *gives Jess a look*

Jess *small smile, puts phone down, looks at Nick* "hey there, Mr Grumps."

Nick "Hrmpf." *rolls over on his tummy, rests head, face down, on his arms*

At this point I knew, Nick was having a 'betes related grump session. But I didn't wanna be all, hey check your sugar, because I hate when every time I'm grumpy people just assume it's my blood sugar, when sometimes I am grumpy just because...and then if it really is 'betes related it frustrates me even more so...I didn't say anything at this point.

Jess *sad smile, looks at Nick's hair, starts running her finger through it, picking out single hairs, giggles*

Nick *muffled* "What are you doing?"

Jess *giggles* "Nothing."

Nick *lifts head a little, looks at Jess, squinty eyes*

Jess *giggle* "You know, how I always say, you act like an old man sometimes?"

Nick "Ugh." *puts head back down on arm*

Jess *looks around Nick's head, whisper tone* "One, two,....three....four..."

Nick *muffled* "Jess...WHAT are you doing?"

Jess "Counting...you have four gray hairs."

Nick *head snaps up* "What?"

Jess *nods head* "Proof that you ARE an old man." *grins*

Nick *sits up* "That's not funny! Are you serious?"

Jess "Yup! Want me to take a picture of them?"

Nick *makes face*

Jess "I could pull 'em out!"

Nick *squints eyes* "I don't know..."

Jess "Aww, my old little man." *pinches Nick's cheek*

Nick *brushes Jess' hand off his cheek* "VERY funny!" *lies back down*

*silence*

Jess "You feel like crappola, huh?"

Nick *sighs, turns head to look at Jess* "I just need to figure out how much basal I need again...I'll be fine."

Jess "Hm..."

Nick "Can you do me a favor?"

Jess *looks at Nick*

Nick "Can you get me my meter?"

Jess *smiles, ruffles Nick's hair, gets up*

I walked through the bathroom door, into Joe and Nick's room and found Nick's satchel sitting on his bed....oh and Joe sitting on his bean bag doing Lord knows what.

Joe "Whatcha doing?"

Jess "Nothing, just..." *rummages through Nick's satchel*

Joe "Twin Time...got it. Does Nick know you're tearing through his purse?" *giggles*

Jess "Joe....whatever. I don't feel like getting into a play-fight now."

Joe "Aww but those are so much fun..."

Jess "He stole my pick!"

Joe "Huh?"

Jess *pulls out a guitar pick out of Nick's satchel* "This...*holds up pick* is MY glow in the dark pick! I've been looking all over for it! And I only have this one!"

Joe "Well, now you got it back." *grins*

Jess *checks outer most pocket* "Oh, duh! Here it is!" *pulls out meter* "Oh, and the pen!" *pulls out insulin pen, then smiles at Joe, leaves room*

I went back into my room, closed the door, and handed Nick his meter....or tried to.

Nick *face down, sticks out his hand*

Jess *unzips meter case, slides test strip into meter, grabs pricker* "I like you're meter, the display's bigger."

Nick *muffled* "No, you can't have it!"

Jess *giggles* "I know...and it's OK, because mine actually has a backlight AND test strip port light."

Nick *muffled* "Stop rambling and just prick my finger please."

Jess *smiles, grabs Nick's hand* "Any preference?"

Nick *wiggles his ring finger*

Jess *pricks side of Nick's finger, holds meter to blood drop, rubs remaining blood drop with her thumb until there's no more blood*

*beep beep*

Jess *sighs*

Nick *groans* "Do I wanna know?"

Jess "Probably not."

Nick "My overage chart is inside that lil pocket..."

Our overage charts tell us how many units of insulin we need in order to bring our blood sugar back down within range when we're high....depending on how high it is, we'll need a certain number of units. For example, if it's between 180 and 230 I need one unit to come back down, etc...everyone's chart is different...and it also has to be adjusted every once in a while...

Jess "It's not in here."

Nick "Aww great...nevermind...I forgot it's different now..."

Jess "...since you're back on shots."

Nick "Yeah....doc wrote one up for me, but I forgot to put it in my bag."

Jess "Where is it?"

Nick "I have no clue."

Jess "Can you umm....guess how many units you might need?"

Nick *sighs* "Probably....what's my number?"

Jess "291."

Nick *looks at Jess* "That sounds about right..."

Jess *sad smile*

Nick "I guess I'll try three units."

Jess "You sure you don't wanna take two first to make sure you won't bottom out, or ask mom for adv-..."

Nick "I saaaiiidd, I'll take three units!"

Jess "Alright, alright...here..." *hands pen to Nick* "I'll go get you some water."

Nick "Fine..."

I got up and went downstairs. I don't like Nick when he's like that. He's just not himself...sometimes I just wanna grab him and scream "Who are you and what have you done with my Nicky??" but then I also get creeped out because I wonder if I'm just as different and not myself when my numbers are all out of whack.

--kitchen--

Mom *writing shopping list, looks up* "Oh, hey sweetie." *smiles*

Jess *goes straight up to mom, hugs her*

Mom *kisses top of Jess' head* "What's wrong? You OK?"

Jess *nods head*

Mom "So, it's Nicholas." Statement, not a question.

Jess *nods head*

Mom *sad smile* "High or low?"

Jess *sighs, breaks hug* "High. I came to grab some water for him."

Mom *walks over to fridge, grabs bottle of water*

Jess "Mom, can you make sure Nick gets his overage chart?"

Mom *hands Jess water bottle* "What happened to his old one?"

Jess *shrugs shoulders*

Mom *sighs* "I'll call the endo in a bit."

Jess "I'll go back upstairs."

Mom "Wait! How did Nick know how many units to take, if he doesn't have his overage chart?"

Jess "He guessed."

Mom *sigh* "Remind him if, when he rechecks in an hour, he's still high to also check for ketones."

Jess "I know, mom, I will." *sad smile*

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--Jess' room--

Jess "Here ya go."

Nick *takes bottle* "Thanks." *takes a few sips*

Jess "So, umm, funny thing...my awesomtastic glow-in-the-dark guitar pick has been missing and..."

Nick "I took it, I'm sorry, you found it in my satchel, and you got it back. Nick is guilty. Case closed."

Jess *grins, lies down* "Man...the Yankees...you, me...and the Yankees."

Nick "Yeah..."

Jess "Do you think we'll get to mee-..."

Nick "No, I will not let you meet ARod."

Jess *makes face* "What about Derek Jeter?"

Nick *gives look*

Jess "Fine then..."

Nick "What song are we gonna sing during the live chat tomorrow?"

Jess "I don't know...do we have to sing?"

Nick "We usually do...ugh I feel like crap."

Jess *frowns* "Oh and mom said she's gonna call yo-...our endo to have him rewrite your chart for you."

Nick *takes another sip* "Oh, good."

Jess *grins* "I got to meet David Henrie today."

Nick *rolls eyes*

Jess "What? That's like you bumping into Elvis Costello or something."

Nick "No, it's not! Because I know for a fact that I would not be drooling and swooning the whole time..."

Jess "I sure hope not..." *giggles*

Nick "Well, I'm glad you got to meet your favorite Disney dude."

Jess *sighs* "Thanks."

Nick *groans*

Jess "I wish I could do more to help you feel better....anything you need?"

Nick "A hug?"

Jess *hugs Nick*

Nick *small laugh* "You know, Nick Jonas is not feeling well, when he asks for hugs."

Jess *smile* "Hope you feel better soon!"

Nick *sighs*

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--later that day--

--Dad's office--

Jess *peaks her head in*

Dad "Oh hey! Come on in, baby girl!"

I entered and sat on one of the chairs.

Dad "So....ARod and David Henrie, huh?" *smiles*

Jess *rolls eyes*

Dad "You know, I almost had a heart attack because I had no idea how you were gonna twist that..."

Jess "I'm sorry...but the look on your face was hilarious!" *laughs, stops laughing* "Sorry.."

Dad *smiles* "It's alright...you're growing up, and I know you got boys on your mind..."

Jess "Daaaaddd! Please, no birds and bees talk now...seriously!"

Dad "Alright then...we can just save the fun stuff for later...but it's coming."

Jess "Is that a threat? And we've already had that talk..."

Dad "Eh, you can always use a refresher course....and no, that was not a threat. It was a promise."

Jess *rolls eyes* "Wonderful."

Dad "If you keep rolling those eyes like that, I'm gonna have to take 'em away!" *winks, smiles*

Jess *giggles*

Dad "For the family part of your birthday tomorrow...what would you like to do?"

Jess "Hmm...honestly?"

Dad *nods*

Jess "Remember how we used to go and play miniature golf, and rode bumper boats, and went to the batting cages?"

Dad *smiles* "You wanna go to a place like Boomers?"

Jess *smiles big, eyes sparkle* "Yesss."

Dad "That's a very humble birthday wish."

Jess "It's just something I used to love when you took us there. And it's something everyone can do and likes to do..."

Dad "I think that's a great idea. We'll do that after the live chat."

Jess *smiles*

Dad "Let me make a phone call and rent the place for a few hours."

Jess "Yay! You're the best, daddy!" *goes to kiss dad on cheek*

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Jess *runs up the stairs* "JOEEE!!!!" *enters Nick and Joe's room* "Joey!"

Joe "JESSSSS!!! What's up?"

Jess "Dad's taking us all to Boomers for our birthday tomorrow!!!!"

Joe *big grin* "Nice!" *bumps fists with Jess* "His idea?"

Jess "Nope. He asked me what I wanted to do and I said miniature golf, batting cages, and bumper boats and he said,oh that's a humble birthday wish..." *squeals*

Joe *laughs* "It is. He probably wanted to rent out all of Disneyland for you."

Jess *stops jumping up and down* "He would have done that?" *pouts* *smiles*

Joe "You know, he would have."

Jess "Yeah, but that's just a little...over the top."

Joe "Yeah..."

Jess "Wow, I'm really excited now!"

Joe *smiles* "How's Nick? When you got his meter earlier, I kinda figured he was probably having a rough day."

Jess *sighs, sits down next to Joe on the bed* "He's having a betes grump session...he'll be fine."

Joe *looks at Jess* "It's hard for me to see him not feeling well but..."

Jess *nods* "I don't just see it...I can feel it..."

Joe *nods*

Jess "He's like my hero, Joe. I don't like seeing him like that...he's all...not nice and impatient and...."

Joe "Seems weak and vulnerable?"

Jess *teary eyed, nods* "But I need him, Joey. He's my twin...without him I'm only half.."

Joe *puts arm around Jess, pulls her close* "Hey, I know, Jessie, I know. We all don't like seeing either of you struggle. But even Superman has his weak moments, where he loses all control..."

Jess *whispers* "Kryptonite."

Joe *kisses top of Jess' head* "But it doesn't make him any less super, right? He's still a hero."

Jess *smiles* "Thanks Joey."

Joe "AND every good super hero has an even greater sidekick....with Nick...that's you! And when he's weak, it's when he needs you to be strong. And you are. You always come through for him. You're like Batman and Robin!" *grins*

Jess "Without the tights..."

Joe "Of course."

Jess *hugs Joe* "You're awesome. Thanks!" *smiles*

Joe "You're welcome." *smiles*

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The rest of the day I pretty much just spent next to Nick. He napped a lot and laid there, just having a poopy d-day, while I was playing my DS. Every once in a while I'd mention his gray hairs just to mess with him, which he didn't exactly appreciate...not too sure why. *grins* but I had to start to get back at my family member one by one for embarrassing me in front of David Henrie earlier in the day, right?

End Notes:

birthday/livechat all comin up!  :)

I wanted to show that even though Nick's the "d-pro" and Jess is the "d-baby" that there are times when Nick will need Jess to be there and strong for him. Of course I also wanted to show how weird it feels for Jess to be in that situation all of a sudden...not like she never helped out Nick when he was high/low but i think he realizes that now she REALLY understands what it's like...