Hell of a Ride

Motherhood as a whole

I wanna meet those moms who are honest about motherhood.. Being a mom sucks 99% of the time. Oh sure you have those occasional moments where your baby smiles at you or does something cute, but those moments are few & far between. Literally all my kid does is whine... Why? Because she's freaking exhausted & refuses to sleep. She screams, throws her little fits & cries all the time. We have 99 problems & sleep would solve 96 of them.

Being a mom is not glamorous or fun at all.. It's late nights, in our case were up until 1-2am before falling asleep for bed... Why... Again she fights her sleep.. Being a mom is long days... Getting thrown up on, peed/pooped on. It's nothing but bottles & diapers. Dealing with teething & drool.  Having an exhausted baby who can barley keep her eyes opened, fighting her sleep for 4 hours! F O U R hours... Just for a 10minute nap... Seriously.... Not to mention having to watch the same movies over & over again.. I'm seriously gonna lose my shit.

Motherhood does not look good on me. Permanent bags under my eyes. Constantly exhausted. I just want to sleep more than 3 hours a night. It's a fight just to get dishes done or laundry started because all this kid does is scream & cry. I can't do it when she's sleeping because she NEVER SLEEPS! constantly fighting headaches because I'm  so exhausted all the time, & developing a caffeine addiction. 👍🏼

Oh & everyone says "Don't worry the first month is he hardest." " it'll get better"..... It's been almost 6 months & it's gotten worse. Sleep has yet to improve. She's still the little devil that she was when we brought her home.. Only difference is she has more attitude. I wonder where she gets that from.

I want to punch those moms in the face that brag about how their baby just took a 3 hour nap or how their baby only woke up once throughout the night, or the "my baby went to sleep at 8pm &  slept 12 hours last night"... Oh good for you Deborah.... My kid slept 2 hours at a time & only woke up 4 times... She also fought me until 1am before falling asleep 👍🏼 & yes Carroll I have taken away movies at a certain time, I have tried a bath before bed, rocking her, giving her a cereal bottle, playing relaxing music, swaddling... I've tried everything. Nothing works with this kid.

It really doesn't get easier.... I've been lied too..

I just want 5 minutes alone in the bath.

Although in the few moments she's not being a demon... She's pretty darn cute... I think I'll keep her. But goodness, I'm gonna have grey hair by the time I'm 25 because of this kid. 😂