Don't You Dare

Chapter Seven

The door slams open making me wake up and jump in the corner not wanting to go back in the room. I grab my knees looking at the man no monster standing in the door frame. I was in the dark corner of the tiny dark little cage, but he-- no it can still see me. It smiles like the Joker and it started walking closer to me.

"Its time sweet heart" it said creepily as it grabs one of my arms. I didn't scream, I didn't cry I haven't in a long time but I did try to fight it off but it was much stronger than my weak body. It takes me down a cold dim hallway with dirty and muddy lamps on the ceiling swinging and twitching. We finally stop at the room it looks at me and smiles.

"What will we do to you this time?" It then laughs and opens the door into the bloody dirty room.

"AAH!" I scream sitting up straight having another nightmare but this time I didn't wait till I calmed down I didn't lean forward or took deep breaths, I got off the bed and headed for the shower. I turned it to ice cold not wanting to feel anything. I stepped in and under the freezing cold water not flinching at how cold it was, just knowing it's not cold enough. I didn't check the time so I don't know if I woke up to early or to late but I didn't care. I never care about anything when I have the nightmares with it in it. It was the monster who killed me. When I believed that I was numb enough I stepped out the shower and into my room to my closet. I wanted to feel as cold as possible today so I put on a black old t shirt and leggings and some old sneakers. I let my hair down not wanting anyone to see me. I grabbed my bag and headed out the door.

"Hey th-" I didn't here the rest of what Carl said because I was already outside in the cold air but I didn't stop to smell the morning air I just took out my cigarettes and lit one not caring if I smelled like them.

I was done with my cigarette when I was at school and saw that I was late. I started walking toward the entrance and into the building. When I was walking through the hallway I heard a door open and close from behind me.

"Hey!" I heard a guy say but I ignored it, I then heard footsteps getting closer, "Hey I'm ta-"

First mistake was he was trying to reach for me. I grabbed his arm and flipped him over my shoulder making him fall hard on his back onto the ground. Still not caring who that was and how my hand was tingling from touching them I just left them on the ground and head to my first class. Just when I was about to open the door the bell rings and I step aside as the door slams open and students rush put to there next class. I let out a little growl and head to my next class.

I walk into my next class, which I was early, and sat in the back corner. Then students finally started to pile in but I didn't pat attention to who. But at one point I felt a presence next to me standing over me. I slowly turned my head into the direction of the person and looked up to see a very angry looking Arthur.

"What the hell" he says but I look at him emotionless not caring in what he was talking about.

"What do you want?" I asked still no emotion showing.

"Why did you flip me over? I didn't do anything" He said, so he was that guy.

"Well next time don't try to touch me." I said turning back around and he didn't say anything else because the bell rang.

"This isn't over" He said and went back to his seat but I didn't care. I just want this day to go by fast and be over.

Lunch finally came just not fast enough. I sat in the same spot like always and sat down under the tree taking out my old iPod and cigarette's. I smoked and listened to music the rest of lunch not thinking just listening to the same music over and over again. Forgetting about everything, everyone, and me. I let lose and forgot that I existed. I was a leaf part of a tall tree, I was one of the leaves at the top feeling the wind and sun. I was a leaf that no one could see or touch, I was a leaf that no one knew existed. I was just a leaf, a leaf that couldn't feel pain or knew what that was. I was a ordinary leaf that would die in the winter.

But all things had to come to end and that was when I felt a shadow over me. I went back to reality and saw a confused Arthur looking down at me. I took out an earphone when he said something.

"What?" I asked. He shook his head in disbelief.

"You didn't look like the smoker type." He said and I take a puff and blew out donuts.

"I'm full of surprises" I said and he raised an eyebrow.

"So about earlier when you flipped me over." He said crossing his arms.

"So about earlier when I told you that it was because you tried to touch me." I said mocking him. I took my final puff from my cigarette and put it out on my hand watching as the smoke starts to disappear. As I put out the cigarette and he was looking at me crazy. But it didn't even hurt, good.

"Doesn't that hurt?" He asked as I start digging a tiny hole next to me. 

"Nope" I said putting the rest of the cigarette in the hole and buried it. I put my head against the tree I was sitting against and looked up and saw millions of leaves and branches. I still felt nothing, like that year I spent in the forest. 

"Do you ever forget about everything even yourself?" I asked him not looking back down. But I did feel him sit in front of me.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Do you ever forget that you ever existed and become something entirely different? Do you ever want to forget?" I asked him closing my eyes for awhile but to only open them just as quick seeing the flash back rising. It makes me so angry I couldn't forget them.

"Um. No? But I do try to forget bad events or times." He said.

"I wonder why I'm here. On Earth, or even alive. I don't see my life as anything special or important but I still want to live. You know just hoping for my life to be important. To be meaningful." I looked down and toward him only to see him looking at me with some sort emotion.

"I just want to be happy" I said looking straight into his eyes.