Love Sick

Understanding

I follow out to the back garden, where Jo and I would spend our time.
6:37pm.
Perfect. I breathe in the spring air as the sun beams on my skin. The setting sun makes the garden glow in bright colours. The view of the stone stairs reminds me of Jo. The time we went exploring around the back garden to see where we would end up.

"Hey!" His voice from behind me calls out. I roll my eyes and don't look back.
"Hey I don't think you're meant to go up there" he adds in as I skip two stairs every step to make the distance quicker.
"Amateur" I shout giggling as I shake my head turning it slightly over my left shoulder.
His frustration can be felt from miles away as he begins to stomp up the stairs.
I stop and turn around and soon he is a step below me.
"You will never appreciate the beauty of nature if you refuse to even give it a chance" I say with a frown as I spin back around making my way further to the top.
"Take it one step at a time, embrace it." I say calmly.
"The mosquitos seem to embracing me that's for sure" he responds with a snide remark.
Once we reach the top I wait for him to be shoulder to shoulder with me. His eyes wide as he actually seems impressed for once.
"Woah" he gulps.
I look up at him, he towers over me in height. His eyes lock onto mine as I give him a quick smile. "Told you to give it a chance, it surprises you sometimes" I wink as I walk off as the rocks beneath my feet crunch as I make my way to the third park bench, mine and Jo's.
As I sit down, I feel Jo there, sitting next to me. I breath in and out slowly closing my eyes as I embrace everything around me, the sun glistening on my skin, the sound of birds chirping. Something I never would have cared for before, before I met Jo. He taught be the ways to appreciate everything, that life's too short not to.
"Just sit back, relax, and let fate decide what happens next" he told me the first time we sat in the garden together. From then I have never forgotten those words.

"I'm Penn by the way" everything stops, my memory of Jo is gone I can no longer imagine him next to me, instead the long haired guy sits next to me on the park bench.
"Millicent" I say closing my eyes again as I try focus on getting the image of Jo back in my head.
"How did you find this place?" He pauses as he scans the garden amazed.
"A friend" I respond quickly.
"Well that's some friend, this is incredible" He says as he sits back comfortably in the park bench.
We sit in silence, I can tell he is uncomfortable with it as I take in my surroundings.
"What happened" I say looking down at his bandaged arm, well what's left of it.
"Does it matter? It's not coming back" he says with a snide remark.
I sigh.
"Sorry, it's taking some time to get used to the thought of my entire life being ruined" he adds in as he inspects his arm lightly touching it with his fingers as if it was going to fall off if he wasn't gentle enough.
"Atleast you're still alive" I mumble, frustrated with his answer.
"Well now with everything that has happened, my best friend dying, losing my job, the girl I was going to spend the rest of my life with going behind my back with one of the biggest douchebags. After that, I wish I didn't even wake up" I can feel the anger in his voice as he rubs his face and moves his fingers through the front of his hair, sweeping it out of his face.
I feel my blood start to boil as I stand to my feet facing him as I look down as his irritating face.
"I'm sorry, I really am, that really must suck for you. But you know what's worse? When you have no choice on whether you will wake up tomorrow, in 3 months time or 3 years time. It's like cancer is this constant ticking bomb and you aren't able to see the time it will all blow up in your face." I yell at him as his face from anger turns to guilt, like my words are getting to him.
"I-" he tries to speak but I interrupt him.
"You should be grateful to even have the freedom of living, having to be able to experience life and grow old,  fall in love, have a family. You get all that. For me it's a 24% chance I will even make it past my 28th birthday. So before you go saying that life's unfair, just remember you signed up for what happened to you... I didn't" I sigh as my body feels a release of tension and I walk back to my room, ignoring him.
I need to clear my head with no one else around me.

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't uploaded in a while I had a busy weekend! I was thinking I may do a couple chapters on Jo and Millie?? Not sure, or that can possibly be a sequel were you can see their entire story.
Make sure to like for more and give a comment if you want to give any ideas or anything! Xx