The Love Story

Chapter 11: Agony in the Garden

     For this day GOD my Father sent me onto the world. For this day, I will be slain by my enemies. Since the day I first have my memory, I knew that this day will come. It is a grand narative that my Father has directed for the salvation of Adam's lost race.

     My time here on Earth is almost over. My betrayer will soon come and he will give me to my enemies. I know...I know that it is the will of my Father, and fulfillig HIS will is my only reason for living, but...but... still, I'm afraid. The weight on my soul crushes me, it gets into the very core of my spirit.

     I went into the mount of olives with my disciples. After we reach it, I told to John, James and Peter to come a little closer to me. I told them to keep watch. I leave them, then I went to the garden to pray. Hoping to get a answer from my Father. 

     As I walk on the garden, I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. It seems like my calvary is now consuming me. I kneeled down and pray. I prayed because I'm afraid, Yes! I'm afraid, but not because of the Roman Cross, but because of what my Father will do next.  I lived a life that is pleasing to HIM. I never sinned, but soon I will going to be the greatest sinner that the world will ever have. 

     I'm sweating...I'm on a agonizing pain, it gets on my very soul and crushes my spirit. Soon I will experience death! Not the death that every livng person will experience, but the death that some person might experience. The second death! death that will separate me from HIS eternal presence. That is the wages for sins, the ultimate punishment for sin is DEATH.

     As my sweath flows, I felt my veins exploding literally. My sweat are now mixed with blood. I kneeled and closed my fist thats on the soil then I said; "ABBA FATHER! I didn't even look up to heaven, "Everything is possible for YOU. So please! FATHER! SPARE ME!" Now my breath became harder for me to grasp. "Father...if it is possible that I will not went through this suffering, please spare me!" Said I, "Ri...rise up and defend me FATHER..." I looked at the heaven, but my Father is still silent as if HE does not hear me. Now HE hids his presence to me. But still I gathered all my courage to say, "But yet, not my will...But let YOUR will be done!"

"Hahahaha, look at you.." Someone said. He is the one who layed down the nations, the one who reblled agints my Father. He is the one who said that, he will put his star higher than my Father's but in the end he was thrown down on the pits of hell. He is the serpent, the deciever, the prince of this world....LUCIFER.

"Jesus, you look so pathetic righ now...I can't imagine how a Son of GOD, suffers like this." He added, "Why not tell to GOD that you changed your mind. That this whole damn thing is absurd! that humans are not worthy!" Then I felt him walk closer to me, he whispered to me, "In fact they are truly worthless and un-worthy to be saved. No man can carry the burdens of the whole world. No one, not even you..."  Yes! Humans are not worthy to be saved. But.....but...My Father loves them so much, and I love them to. I know that even after this, a lot of them will not believe in me, some will do but then still leaves me. However, this is my Father's GRACE, HIS great CRAZY love for you. YES! FOR YOU!  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH that I'm willing to die for you.

"Humans, they will just spit on your face..." 

"The LORD is my shepherd."

"They will curse you!"

"I will never be in need!"

"They will beat you!"

"He let me rest on streams of peaceful waters."

"THEY WILL CRUCIFY YOU!"

"YOU refresh my life."

"They will kill you!"

"Though I walk on valley as dark as DEATH..." Then I look to Lucifer, " I FEAR NO EVIL! FOR YOU MY GOD WILL PROTECT ME!" 

     An angel came to give me strenght then I strike the serpent on its head with my heel. I went back to Peter James and John. I'm amaze to see them sleeping, then I said to them; "WAKE UP!" After that I went back to the garden, to pray again. I pleaded to my Father, I looked at the heaven and I saw HIM offering me the cup. The cup of suffering, a soon as I drink it, my true suffering will start. With my trembling hands I took the cup, but....I can't! I can't drink it! I gave it back to him, then I stand up and went back to my disciples, but again I saw them sleeping, but again I saw them sleeping.

     For the third time, I went back and prayed. Should I take it now? My reason for living is to do HIS will, and so finally I found the courage to do it. That time all I';m thinking is YOU. I love you, and I'm willing to do everything for you, and so I took the cup, and drank its poisonous content.

     Now the greatest drama that the world will ever see is about to start! I stand and wake them up for the third time. "Wkae up!" I said, "My betrayer is here!" This is not happening because of Judas. It is happening because my love for you brought me here. I love you and I'm willing to lay down my life for you.

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     I saw you crying, crying because someone hurt you, because someone has cheated on you, or maybe because they all leave you. Are you sad because you feel so alone? misserable? insecure? ugly?or maybe you thought that no one will love you for who you are. But my child....I LOVE YOU.

     YES! I LOVE YOU FOR YOU! NOT FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE OR WHAT YOU WILL OR MAY DO. Please put your attentions on me. I can love you, untill you learn to love yourself so you can truly love others.

     Maybe you wish for a man who will kneel down infront of you with roses on his hands, while proposing his love for you. Oh how I know that you dream for that, admit it or not. But my child I'm sorry because went back on the time that I proposed to you, its not that sweet. I'm not kneeling or holding some rose for you. I'm not even close on your dream knight in shining armor. Because went back then.....My feet and hands were nailed on the cross, I was beaten severely that I look so gruesome that you might mistake me for a giant worm. I look so ugly went back on time that I proposed to you....But I love you, please believe me..Hahaha, maybe it is what you call PDA. Because I was crucified publicly. You know why? It is because I PUBLICLY DISPLAYED MY AFFECTION for you! I died publicly to declare to the public that I LOVE YOU.

     And for you. The guy out there who were left by his girlfriend, or maybe you have been bullied, or maybe you are the one who bullied someone...Dont worry I also love you, BIG TIME! Why not love me first before you love other girls? Why not love your parents and obey them first before you search for that GIRL. Trust me, I'll give her to you the moment I saw that you are ready. I am preparing the most beautiful lovestory for the two of you.