Cold pain

CHAPTER 3

Nathan's POV

"Let's stop this." She said and left.

She left without letting me speak. Well, she knows me too well. She knows that even she end this thing between us, I won't still take the risk. I don't know what's stopping me. What's stopping us. We're both cold because we both know that no one is deserving to have us if they can't see us through. That's what I believed in. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe we're just scared that someone will sweep us off our feet and leave us hanging. Yes, that's right. We're coward. Not that I'm proud of it. It just that, we're that.

But her. She's different from all the girls I've encountered. She's not the usual type. She isn't cold because something happened. It just happened. She understand me. I know we belong to each other. And she knows that too. We fit too perfectly. She tends to make me smile without my knowledge. She's the reason why my heart beats fast. She's the reason why I'm going insane. And she's the one who can also keep me sane.

She puzzles me too much that I don't know what to do. The next day, she didn't go to school. I was waiting for her. I fixed my mind last night. And came to a conclusion that I can't lose her. Not now. Not ever. She's too damn precious for me. We're already hurting now, might as well take the risk. And get hurt.

"Where's Scarlett?" I asked our classmate

"Didn't you know? Someone found her lying on the ground at a certain park near their house. They said she was stabbed." She answered

"What?! Where is she hospitalized?"

"At ******** Hospital. She's having her surgery today."

I run as fast I could to reach that goddamn hospital. When I arrived, I was trembling in fear. Out of luck, she's already undergoing her surgery. Hours passed, and it's slowly killing me alive. Every second she spends inside that Operating Room felt like I'm loosing her slowly too.

The surgeon went out and announced the news to us. The news that took my breath away. The news that took my heart away. I felt weak. Feels like that was the shittiest news I've ever heard.

I walked out and went to the rooftop. I prayed!

"Lord, is this the price of being a coward?" I asked God

"Why do you have to take her when I already discarded my fears on crossing that line. You're so unfair. You took her away from me. And she took my heart with her." I cried

I cried hard that my knees can't support me anymore. I hold unto the railings for my dear life. Ha! I should have held your hand tight like this. I should have run after you that time. Now all I can do now is cry to death and sit in a corner, waiting for you to come back. But you won't, right?

Why did I build my courage up so late? Why? Why does this hurt too much? She was my everything. I haven't even got the chance to tell her what I really feel. I haven't told her yet that I love her. I love her so much that it is killing me inside.

What if I took the risk before this happened? Maybe we're enjoying ourselves right now. Enjoying each others company without holding back anymore. Maybe we're happy by now. Maybe there was lesser pain. Maybe..

Now who else gonna make me smile like the way you do?

Why did you left me that fast Scarlett? You should have waited for me. We should have been enjoying our happily ever after. You were the one who melted this iced stone heart of mine. As I was the one that melted yours too.

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No Prologue.