Secrets

Six feet down

We arrive at my house and I get off my bike heading towards my house I go inside and throw my keys on the table stand

"Bex what has been going on and I want to know everything ok?" She says and I nod a yes and start walking towards that couch and she follows me

"Bex talk please" she says and I look up

"It all started when my mom and dad came home drunk with each a different person and I was introduced to my drinking problem I was only fifteen at the time and I didn't know what was going on I was so confused but really that's when my drinking problem started and my cutting problem ended" I said

"When I was twelve I was bullied my parents were getting a divorce so I wasn't as shocked when they came home with different people I just realized how fake they were they actually took me to therapy to try and help me stop cutting and the solution they thought was to stay together but when they both came home with those people I ran away my brother was out at his friends and I ran down the street and I remembered hearing about a crazy party at tylers I went there and I got drank my problems away that's how I met David and Oliver Oliver was nice but David was a complete monster...." I say shivering at the thought of that party

"David abused me and took my Virginity that night and I was to afraid to tell anyone and it continued on and on until it went crazy and I met Brett once when I was at davids and he took advantage of me as well and that's what I have been raised in I have been raised with the idea that alcohol and drugs could erase the past or at least help me forget that's how I am!" I say pissed off

"Bex you didn't oust that together well" she said and I ran my hands throughout my hair

"I can't do this anymore! ok?! I can't do life!" I yell slamming one of my empty beer bottles on the ground I forgot to pick up a good bit of the beer bottles

"Bex why talk to me!" She yelled at me

"Because every single fucking time I think I'm in love or that every thing is well it turns to the worse Amy my 'boyfriend' 's abused me you don't even like me and every thing was going well and now my parents are going six feet down now do you understand what's happening to me huh?!" I yell slamming beer bottles against the wall rampaging

"Bex that is no reason to want to die what's the real reason and I want to know the truth!" She yells and I hate it she is mad at me I can tell

"It's to complicated" I say holding my stomach and she glances at me but I don't know for sure but I think she shook it off

"What does Simon and Paul know that I don't know Bex?!" She yelled

"It's too much to say I could barely tell them!" I yelled

"You can tell me if you really love me you can tell me!" She yells and I'm grasping my stomach even more

Oh god not now

"I can't......" but I couldn't finish it I ran to the bathroom and started throwing up and the taste was horrible in my mouth

"Bex?" She asks me

I look up she is in the doorway confused as hell

"Ok fine I'm pregnant!" I yelled and stormed up to my room shutting the door

That is it

My secret is out

But not entirely

One small thing was left out