A/N: Sorry for any errors i'm posting this at like 1am!
I woke up and rolled over to find Caspar fast asleep. His blond hair was sticking out every which way and his mouth was wide open with a little morning breath slipping out, but I didn't mind. I wish I could see him like this every day but sadly, I couldn't. But if I hand only one wish I would wish for this idiot, and I’d be happy.
"You know I can see you" he said and I smiled "No, but how do I look?" I asked. He smiled and opened his eyes "Beautiful" he mumbled making me laugh. I let out a long sigh before gently pressing my lips to his then wrapping my arms around him and pressing our bodies close. "I love you" I whispered and I felt him hum "I love you too".
"HELLO!" His mother cheered bursting through the door. Caspar jumped so hard he almost knocked me off his bed, but he grabbed me and pulled me back on. "Sorry" he said before kissing my forehead and turning to his mother. I laid flat on my back while Caspar propped himself up on his elbow to listen to his mother. "I made breakfast, so get decent then come down!" she said and I started to blush "Mum we're not doing anything!" Caspar said unconvincingly.
"Well...just come down in a few" she said before shutting the door. Caspar landed flat on his back and let out a soft groan of embarrassment "Sorry about that”. I smiled and rolled over letting myself lay on top of him "It's fine" I said before placing a kiss on a piece of exposed skin. "You know" he started before moving his hand under my shirt and resting on the skin of my back "I like you on top".
My head shot up only to see him wiggling his eyebrows. "Oh really?" I said raising an eyebrow and his face turned red "Yea". "Well then maybe I-" "Are you ready yet?" His mother side making Caspar roll his eyes "No mother" he said back. I rolled off of Caspar and moved so I sitting on the edge of the bed. "Wait come back" he said pulling at the back of my shirt "Stop it Casp your mother is waiting" I said and he let go.
I started to get ready and soon so did Caspar. We got dressed and made our way down the staircase to be hit by the smell of eggs, toast, and bacon. I smiled because for once I was hungry and excited to eat. I made down past the last step and I felt Caspar’s arms wrap around my waist and pull me back into him. He rested his head on my shoulder as was continued to walk into the kitchen. We were greeted by his mother and sister smiling and already sitting down "Sorry" I simply said ripping Caspar's arms from my body.
I sat down and looked down at the food and I was right, eggs, toast, bacon, and a few slices of avocado. "This looks amazing, thank you" I said looking over at Caspar's mother and she smiled "Thank you!” I watched as Theodor started eating so I started to as well only to find Caspar started when he sat down. "So what do you want to do for your last day?" his mother asked and I looked over at Caspar who had a piece of bacon hanging out of his mouth.
He bit of off and put the excuses on the plate "I really don't know" he side while chewing his food. "Cover your mouth!" I said shoving a napkin in his face "Finally someone else agrees" his mother said making me laugh. And that's when the coughing started, and it got bad really fast.
My throat was burning and my eyes were watering. I was coughing so hard I could feel the pain in my back and I could feel the blood flying out of my mouth and onto my hand that was shielding my mouth. "Is she ok?" I heard his mother shout and "Oh god!" his sister shouted in pure terror. Everything was starting to become too much and I started crying even hard.
And soon the coughing subsided and it was just me crying with everyone standing around me. "It's ok" I heard Caspar say resting his hand on my back. I opened my eyes to find Caspar knelled down next to me and I wrapped my arms around his neck and I tried to make the crying stop. He hugged me so tight I thought I was going to break, but I didn't care. I was scared and all I wanted was him right now.
"Are you alright sweetie?" I heard his mother ask and I lifted my heard up. I wiped the tears from my cheeks then looked up at her. I smiled but I could tell they knew it wasn't real and I felt all the pressure in my body move to my head, and I thought it was going too exploded.
"I have cancer"
I whispered and I watched both his mother's and sister's faces drop. They looked as if they saw a ghost and I turned to Caspar "I'm sorry" I mouthed, he simply nodded. I looked down at my hand that was coved in blood, my blood. It's just something I can never get used to it, blood, coming from me. Things that were supposed to stay inside coming out of me, I can't ever get used to it. It was gross and I couldn't stand it.
"Cancer?" I head his mother say and I turned and looked at her. I nodded and she shut her eyes before she hugged me tight. "I'm so sorry sweetie" she whispered in my ear and I would have hugged her back but I didn't was to stain her with my blood. "Thank you" I said and she let go and I saw she had tears in her eyes "Oh please don't cry" I choked out before a single cough shot its way out of my mouth. "I'm trying" she said laughing a little before wiping the tears from her eyes.
"H-how long have you known?" Theodor asked and I turned my attention to her "A while now" was all I said. "Are you seeking any sort of tret-" "Theodor" Caspar said cutting her off before she could finish. "Caspar" I simply said and he looked away. I just wanted to reach out for him, but again bloody hands. "I need to use the restroom" I said standing up and quickly moving towards the half bath that was around the corner.
I walked in and immediately starting washing the blood off my hands. I kept scrubbing and scrubbing trying to get it all off, but I ended up crying again. God I hated crying so much but it seemed the be the only way to show I felt. I felt weak and trapped, like a prisoner in my own body, and I hated it. I hated everything that was happening and I just wanted it to end.
"Nora" I heard Caspar say though the door snapping me out of my thoughts. "Just a second" I said and turned off the water and find all the blood washed from my hands. I dried them on a towel that was hanging there and opened the door. Caspar wasn't standing there so I walked around to corner to find him, his mother, and sister there in a little circle.
Caspar looked at me and other two followed "You alright?" he asked and I nodded "Yea. I'm fine" I said wiping my tears away. "Did you want to somewhere today?" he asked and I shrugged "I don't care" I said trying make this all seem normal. "Maybe she just needs to rest ca-" "No it's fine Emily" I said and his mother nodded with a smile.
"How about we take her to that spot we used to take you where you were little! You know with the big rocks and everything!" Theodor said and they all smiled and nodded "Ok" I said. They all seemed very excited and for that moment, so was I.
A/N: I hope to have this finished a few days before charismas so that's how much longer you have till the end just letting you guys know. There are I know less than 10 chapters left so enjoy them while that last! See you on I think Thursday!xx
