Can We Be Free Forever? {Andy Biersack} *DISCONTINUED*

1: Ew School

* (this means I edited the chapter)

*This sounds a bit depressing though.*

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1: Ew, School

Phoenix's P.O.V.

Numb.

Numb is all I can feel, if that is even a feeling.

Do you know how it is to feel nothing?

Being sick of everything you just want to quit?

Slowly dying because of the terrible things happening?

I do.

I sit in my room starring into space well listening to music. Just looking at nothing, feeling nothing.

Nothing.

That's who I am. I, Phoenix Daisy Emerson is nothing.

The 'emo', teal haired girl is me.

Phoenix Daisy Emerson is me.

I am nothing.

A DIAMOND BULLET AND A GUN MADE OF GOLD SHE WAS COVERED IN BLOOD LAST SEEN IN SAN FRANCISCO!

Then that's when I snapped out of my gaze starring nowhere.

I groaned. Hearing those lyrics of 'Besitos' by Pierce The Veil means school. Great school, just what I needed, a place filled with the douche bags of life stomping on you making the length of life smaller.

I got up and walked to my dresser to pull out my clothes. then I walked out of my bedroom and down the hall then into the bathroom.

I take off my clothes and look in the full body mirror in the bathroom.

Disgusting.

My body, it's disgusting.

The scars on my stomach.

I just look fat.

'No boy will ever love you and your fat body, you will never be good for anyone' I keep thinking to myself.

I sigh.

"No one will ever love me." I say knowing its true.

I pull on my black skinnies, my Andy Biersack muscle shirt thing and a 'Doctor Who' TARDIS/Police Box sweater, all from Hot Topic also known as my favourite store. I tease my hair a bit, do my makeup and head into the kitchen.

Debating if I should or shouldn't eat due to the fact my stomach is not strong at all.

I decided to go for it, but have to take my medicine -Insulin-,I didn't really eat anything I only ate - or should I say drank 2 juice boxes for the carbs.

Now you might be saying "wait, why are you eating food full with carbs when you want to be skinny?"

Well good question, but I will explain later.

After I'm done 'eating' I put my homework into my bag and leave.

I plug in my headphones and go to my playlist on my IPod with artists like: Black Veil Brides, Falling In Reverse, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Of Mice & Men, Panic! At The Disco, The Killers and Paramore, not to mention the singles of more bands I love.