Can We Be Free Forever? {Andy Biersack} *DISCONTINUED*

17: Is This Getting Better... Or Worse?

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(A/N: Okay, there is a big time skip, only because I know it would really boring to read about Andy's tour life or Phoenix's school life, so the time skip is about 5 months ahead, which means it would be July, but late July. So yeah. Read on!)

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17: Is This Getting Better... Or Worse?

Phoenix's P.O.V.

*5 months later*

There are new people at my school that've came over the last five months. Most of them fit right in with Hailey and her crew. A few more of them have become best friends with Trenton, because of this, the very little bullying I used to be getting has now become worse. I get tolerated everyday for how I look, act, the music I listen to, etc. I also have lost a lot of connection with my friends; Pierce got in severe trouble because her parents found out that she smokes weed (just a little though) and her parents blame it on me. Jeanette has moved away to Chicago because of her job and my mom has been taking days at work, meaning she works all night and goes to work late at night to early in the morning.

I haven't been talking to Andy a lot, just evaluate the depression has gotten worse. I know he worries about me considering all the various texts he sends me but I don't answer, same goes for Skype calls and phone calls.

I've also been really close to going back to my trusty ol' friend; my razor. I always keep one in my little jewelry box and one in a little pocket zipper in my backpack.

"A DIAMOND BULLET AND A GU-" startled, I turn my alarm off. Its Monday again. The most worst day of the week. I sound like Garfield, God dammit. I slowly stand up from my bed and pull on a tank top, big sweater, socks and skinnies. I shuffle out of my room and into the kitchen and do my routine of doing my insulin, eating and sitting until I have to leave.

Pulling at my laces for my Converse then do, once again, a routine; plug my headphones in and begin to walk. Sometimes I walk to school just clear out my mind instead of thinking about road safety. Also I love the fresh air. A Month Of Sunshine by Fever Dreamer has been on repeat for a couple of days. It's not by a popular band, but it's still a terrific song.

"I swear to God I'll bring you peace..." I hummed along with the sweet tune. "SLUT!" Hailey's car passed by. I looked down at feet and crossed my arms trying to fight the tears. I continued to walk to school.

*At Mr. Noble's class (science teacher)*

"Alright, class we are going to--" I blocked out his voice and laying my head on the desk, pulling my hood on and pressing play to my music. Black Damask by Motionless In White was now the song that played. The end of this song has always calmed me down. The part where Chris (vocalist) sings "we all fall down."

"Emerson!" Noble yells my last name, causing me to slowly lift my head. "Yeah?" I ask bluntly.

"What were you doing?! And take that damn hood off!" He yells, I do as he says and I take my hood off.

"I was laying my head on the desk." Answering, I take out my headphones.

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I take my shot and start eating my macaroni, I looked around at all the tables in the cafeteria until I meet eyes with my best friend; Pierce. She looks at me with sad eyes but I look away. She started to look more normal; no more colourful hair, she wears converse shoes, plain shirt and jeans. When I look at her she doesn't see as energetic but she seems happy. Pierce had a new group of friends and a boyfriend. The people she hangs out with are nice... but I don't really like them. It's weird. Whatever.