Forever

His Misery-Chapter 31

Hunter POV Friday,October, 15 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~it was a nice autumn day and I just got off of school. I went to our local coffee shop, and picked up two lattes for me and Haru. I walked to his job, since it wasn't far from the coffee shop. Man this year is almost over and we're both almost 18 and we can finally spend the rest of our lives as a married couple, and honestly I thought this would never happened. Because my whole life I thought I was something I'm not, and thankfully Haru taught me that and maybe I did the same for him. And I know we're really young and have the rest of our lives to decide who we want to be with but honestly I couldn't imagine my life without him and if I could, it would be depressing. Honestly I love the crap out of him. He's so cheerful and loving and a great person. Sure, we both did our ups and downs but we stuck through it. And we always came back to each other.

I got to his job and I came in. As soon as I came in I met Haru's beautiful electric blue eyes that made my heart skip a beat. "Hey," I said as I came over to the counter. "Hey gorgeous" he said back looking at my bright emerald eyes. I started blushing, really badly. "Oh, I got us drinks" I said as I handed him his latte. "Oh thank you," he said cheerfully, as always. "So how was school?". "Uh, it was normal, how is it doing here" I replied. "Uh it's doing pretty good," he said as he took a sip. "The business is great, and yeah. It's doing good". I can't stop looking at him, he's just so adorable. "But let me just go tell them I'm leaving" Haru said as he went into the back room. I went to look around the store, and it's pretty decent sized and looks amazing. I wonder what kind of job Haru wants after he's done with school, since he's been doing it online. I'm just proud of him, he's working to pay for both of us, and I don't know how to say thank you to him. Haru came out and walked towards me. "Okay I'm ready," he said and took my hand. I just loved the way he looked in his coat, beanie, and scarf. He looks like the cutest thing ever.

We got to my dorm and as i was putting my key into the door, Haru came over and hugged me. I smiled and turned over and kissed him. I opened the door and we walked in. I flopped on the bed and Haru went to the kitchen to video chat with his family (like he does every day). After flipping through the channels on our tv, I walked to the kitchen to check on Haru. I went behind Haru and then waved hi to his mom and sister. "Oh hi, Hunter!" his mom said. "Hi, Mrs. Ryuuzaki" I said and smiled. I went passed Haru to look in the fridge and see what we had that I could make for dinner. As of course, we didn't have anything. I sat on the couch and waited for him to get off the phone. As I'm waiting I started thinking. Our wedding,our futures, our ends. Just a slap in the face of reality. I'm seventeen years old and I'm engaged, and both my parents are gone, who would be there at the wedding. I have no family except for Haru. And what if when we have kids, when does he want to have kids. What happens if I die, I don't want him to be sad, but if he dies I can't live without him. I'm still a kid but in a few months I won't be. January 11th I'll officially be an adult, and that's scary. I had a somewhat normal childhood. I miss my mom, I miss my dad. I don't know what to do I just don- and suddenly a hand rests on my shoulder snapping me out of my hypnotic anxiety state. That's something he could always do. snap me back into reality. I look up to see Haru smiling at me. "You okay?" He said. "Yeah I just drifted off" I said not being completely honest with him. As I started doing it again he jumped on top of me. He sat my legs and kissed me as we were laying down. He looked at me and said "koishiteru" and kissed me again. "What does it mean?" I asked him. "It means I love you, but to your soulmate". I leaned up and kissed him. "You'll have to teach me Japanese one day" I said and smiled. "what do you want for dinner, we're out of food. " I asked him. "Well I was going to the store anyways, and I wanted to make you something." he replied. "oh what is it?" i asked as i looked back at him. "something my mom used to make when we were back in japan". he said whilst putting on his jacket. "ill be back in a hour" and walked out the door. I got up, bored. Wondering what should I do.

I hear a phone ringing, so I check my black jeans pocket, looking for my phone. I checked and it wasn't my phone. I saw across the room on our wooden table, Haru left his phone. I know i shouldn't do this but, I saw it was Charlie. I answered. "please, don't speak. Just listen. I miss you, please come back I can treat you so much better. You wouldn't have to leave your family behind for some guy who put you through so much heart ache.Please I'll just be yours, no one else's. You could be back with your mom, your sister, and me. Please come back" I was stunned. Is this how Haru really felt. Did I really put him through so much pain. What did I do. Did i drag him away from his family. "Hello?" charlie said and I didn't know what to say. I just started to cry. Just the thought of me hurting Haru so badly. "Please don't cry" charlie said, sounding like he was on the break of tears too. "Look please say something". "Did I really hurt Haru?" I asked while still crying. "Oh, Hunter" he said coldly. "Well, the day you left for England he came to my door, crying. I didn't know what to do, but he stayed at my place for awhile, and we started dating. But he was never really happy. He just faked it. Even though you came back, I looked at him and he still looked empty. Look I love him just as much as you do, I can tell when he's happy". I was in shock. Is he really faking it. I guess I was so blind with my happiness of him being here, I couldn't see his misery.

I hung up the phone, and I flopped on my bed staring at the ceiling at what felt like minutes, but what was actually a hour. As Haru sat on the bed and kissed my cheek. I sat up and he looked worried. "Are you okay?" he said as he wiped my tears. I hadn't realized I had been crying the whole time and still now. "What happened?" He asked me. I looked down and asked him "Are you happy?" "Of course I am, as long as I'm with you" he replied. "Do you think I dragged you away from your family?" I asked starting to cry harder. "No, it was my choice to come here" He replied. "Did I hurt you really bad. So bad that you're still not happy now. I'm so sorry that i did, I just thought it was best for the both of us. 'Cause I couldn't take you not being with me. I couldn't take you being okay with it, because that's the kind of person you are. Being okay with anything and still being really happy. I couldn't take you being okay that." I looked up to see his beautiful electric blue eyes crying. "Of course I was hurt, but I didn't want to make you feel bad about going to your dream school. I didn't know I'd still be dealing with it now. But I'm happier than I've ever been. Of course I miss my family, I was going to move out one day or another. I only went out with Charlie so I wouldn't feel alone-" "I NEVER WANTED TO MAKE YOU FEEL ALONE"I interrupted. "I never wanted to hurt you so bad, that you would go to Charlie for help or anyone else for that matter." I said loudly whilst crying. "please, if there is anything I can do, I know I can't do anything to help the past but if there is anything I can do to make you happy I will" I said quieter than last time. "Well, there is one thing," he said and stopped crying and sounded like his usually cheerful self. "NIHONGO KENKKONSHIKI" Haru said excitedly. "What?" I asked. "I mean Japanese wedding. They are so beautiful, I miss going to my family and friends' weddings. I'd love to have a traditional Japanese wedding" he said excitedly, even slightly bouncing on the bed. "Then, its settled, we're going to have our wedding in Japan!" I said as I stood up in a slight superhero position. "Except, how are we gonna get there if we are broke as fuck" I said as I realised that one crucial detail. "My mom! She can pay for the trip, she's been meaning to go there anyway." He said in his usual cheerful tone, which I love. His cute little smile he has made me smile and as he was still talking about I don't know what, I got on my knees and kisses him. His soft reddish pink lips made my heart flutter. "Haru, I'm so madly in love with you" I said as I released him from our passionate kiss. He just smiled a small smile but let me know he felt the same way about me.

I pinned him on our bed and started to kiss his neck. I could hear him breathing louder and louder. I slipped my hands up his shirt and started touching his soft pale white skin. Then he slipped his hands up my shirt now touching my back. I kept kissing his neck over and over again. He started to take off his shirt and I took off mine. I started to kiss his chest, his soft bare chest. Unjust loved to put my skin on his. I grabbed him and laid down with him. He started to kiss my neck and then when he pulled away I kissed his forehead and we just started to cuddle. Just laying there with him, silent or not, was the best thing in the whole world to be. He's the boy I'm crazy in love with and just his touch made me feel like I died and went to heaven. I ended up falling asleep with him on top of me sleep as well.