Upside Down and Inside Out

Sick to Death

Summer, ah summer. The time when your supposed to kick back, relax and enjoy life a little bit right?

WRONG

This summer has brought me little of its luxury, in fact, it pretty much bailed on me all together. Hoping that I would FINALLY have a chance to feel free to be myself I did two things. One, admitted to my mother who is SUPER Christian that I, her firstborn daughter, did not believe in the things she had been practically spoon feeding me my entire life. Second, I finally came out of the cupboard and told her I'm Pan-sexual. Surprisingly neither of these really shocked her, she really only complained about "labeling" myself and being a rebellious jerk who was doing ANYTHING I possibly could to push her away. Witch, in a sense, I am. 

There has been this long standing argument going on between my family and I about Andrew, and quite honestly I'm fed up. The constant fighting and bickering about why I won't just leave is driving me insane considering all the shit that I went through in my last relationship. You think they would just be happy that I was willing to let someone even get close to me again. Granted for awhile I was terrified, how could I let someone close to me again after what I had been through? Psych! That's not what this chapter is about, maybe another time.

The fact is, besides the lack of communication here and there I am perfectly happy RIGHT where I am. The day that changes is the day I'll throw up my white flag and go back with my tail in between my legs and look my mother in the eye and tell her she was right. But today is not that day, nor will it be in my near future. 

This is my life, ans this is just the beginning for my story.

*A/N Sorry about the HUUUUGE gap and this sad sorry chapter, no one reads this anyway but I DID NOT DIE. Ok well maybe my soul died for a little while but that's not the point. The point is that I'm back in business baby!*