The Moments We Have Shared - Amilly

I've Fallen in Love Again

(Lilly POV)

I've fallen in love with someone else, and I started questioning if I ever was really in love with you.

The answer is yes. I loved you. Your art made my eyes smile and sight of you made my heart smile. No matter how hard the day was I'd look and you and know you'd be there. But something changed, Aman. I don't know what. Maybe there was too much of you and not enough of me. I lost myself loving you. I wanted you more than I wanted my career and maybe that's how love is but I couldn't handle that. 

I loved you. I went crazy over you. I lost my sleep over you. I wanted to get out of wherever I was that was not with you. And at night when I was my videos I couldn't help but put you in them without anyone knowing. I missed you more than anything and I needed to realize you're never going to be with me again. I'm sorry for making you wait but maybe this as been for the best. 

I still see your face and wonder what it would be like if you were here right now. What we would do. What we would say. If you'd look at me like a masterpiece...the way you do to her right now. 

She's beautiful and sweet & I do hope you have a wonderful future ahead. I'm working on mine now. 

I never thought I could fall in love again after you but I did. I'm in love with my life now. And that's something I wish I was in love with, when I was with you.