in memory of

vi. { anonymous }

in memory of susanna

i am a cynical sort of person who believes nothing and no-one, which is why this entry shall be anonymous. i am almost positive someone will read this before they burn all of these thoughts and memories, and i do not wish to share this note. with anyone, except myself. 

and perhaps susanna, if i believed in that sort of thing. 

the whole town has been quiet since your death. it has been sixteen days, and everyone thinks about you but no-one talks about you. it is like your name is a curse and a gift. your mother, brother and sister haven't been out the house yet; only for your funeral, which was ten days after you took your life. 

i know that some people think it's selfish, what you've done. i don't believe it is. 

you're in a better place, susie. [i know that what was you wanted to be called, even if no-one else does.]

i know about your dad. and i'm sorry. very, very sorry.