After all this time, what keeps on refiling my empty heart? A dosage of neediness, with a cup of sadness. Hopefully, someday, someone will come into my life and take all the pain that I'm having right now. But what's my real wish is that, you and I will be together again. I only have our precious memories from our past.
Somehow, reminiscing our moments together. Makes me happy for a minutes, but it only last for a moment. I can also see how I destroyed everything that I build, protect and cherished for 3 years. It's not you, who ruined our relationship. It's me and my ghost. I do always love you, but I always look into the past.
"MY PAST"
· How someone leave me because I'm not good enough for him.
· How he make mistakes, over and over again.
· How he showed me that I'm not one of his priorities or responsibilities.
· How he treat me, when his upset into something that I'm not involved.
· How he makes me sad and cry, but never apologize even once.
· How I make efforts but him, in return not at once, he never did.
· How I always apologize and still love him, even though I'm broken.
· How he lied and still I'm accepting him.
· How he walk away, but still I'm begging for him to come back.
· How I love him, after all these things.
· How I make a mistakes and still he accepts me.
· How I always put the blame on him, just because of his mistakes in the past.
· How I argue with him, just because I can't feel him anymore.
· How I said that I give up on our relationship.
· How he walks away and never come back.
I know. It's all because of me. If I only became stronger, more stronger to trust and be faithful in our relationship. It won't ended up into this. If I do endure the pain while having you by my side, than the pain that I'm having now that you're gone. If I can turn back the time.
"I would make you love me. I make everything fair for you and for me. I will endure the pain and make more happy moments. I would love you every day and never leave you."
