It's been a month, from the last day that you've let go of my hands. No hello, no goodbye, no sorry, no thank you, and no words at all. So this is it again. The feeling of an abandoned heart. The forgotten one. The regretful one. The thoughts that are not express anymore. Memories turn into pictures. Feelings that are now only written to a book. Cold nights comes.
Woman: "Hi!"
Man: "Why?"
Woman: "Just want to know, how are you?"
Man: "....." (Blank)
You really never look back. You didn't answer my questions anymore. You really left me. Is it because, I've hurt you so much. That you want me to feel the same way too. You want me to hurt myself by regretting everything that I've done to you. Is this what you called revengeful heart?
Do you really have to do this to me? I'm missing you so much. I can feel you now. I can feel your pain, that you're hurt. Every moment and every time that I leave you behind. I always come back to you, but this time, this time you're the one who left and push me away. If I can only bring back the time. I would say I'm sorry for everything.
So this is what you feel. Seeing someone's back, walking away from you. When you're trying to reach his hands and he's not letting you to hold it anymore. When you're talking to him, and he never listen to you. When you look into his eyes and you can only feel the coldness of his heart. When you keep on looking for him, but he's not coming anymore.
I'm sorry for you and for our relationship. I ruined it. I let this things happened. I let you go. I asked for this. Now that it is given and happening. I didn't see that it can't make me happy, that living without you is like living but I'm dying inside. Tell me what to do. Till when will I have an eye for you. When will I love you like this. Even if my heart is breaking into pieces. I still love you.
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