Don't Go

Chapter 5

3 weeks later
I'm out of hospital now thank god, was a horrible flashback of when I was in there for my eating disorder issues. I haven't been at school but went back Monday and today is Wednesday. Everyone seemed to notice my absence and asked if Niall had done something to me which was ridiculous, he wouldn't hurt me....at least i think he wouldn't. I haven't really spoken to him or wanted to but mum has allowed him inside when I was staying home recovering etc. she very much likes him whereas dad is a little more skeptical about the tattoos and piercings.

He texts me and calls me once a day go check I'm ok which is sort of sweet. The cuts have begun healing but will leave massive scars and my ribs aren't any closer to healing themselves yet either. Dobby and Crookshanks have been the best ever, they are always cuddling me and when I got out of hospital Dobby slept with me every night and still is. He's so protective and I love him. I began walking home and Niall ran up to me. "Hey" he said and I looked to him and said "Hey". "Bekka...I wanted to say I'm sorry..I'm so sorry". "For what?" I asked as I kept walking. "For saying that I said that day..." "Oh well, you clearly wanted to fuck someone better than me which I understand" I snapped at him. "I DIDNT ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING" he yelled at me getting annoyed. I was hurt. "You sure Niall? You sure that your egotistical mind can remember something other than yourself!?" I spat. "I fucking saved your life!?! And your calling me egotistical...hahahaha" he replied fuming.

Niall's POV

"I DIDNT WANT TO BE SAVED NIALL! I wanted to die god damn it..." She cried out and I was shocked. I knew she was like this but hearing it clarified from her mouth is another thing. "But Bekka....I don't want you to. I really don't" I said calmly looking at her intently and she had tears in her eyes. I just wanted to hug her, hold her fragile body in my arms. "You wouldn't even notice if I was dead" she said and looked down at the pavement. "I would! Why do you think I'm so protective of you? I can't stop thinking about you and ever since it happened I have been guilt ridden knowing I made you do that, knowing I made you want to be dead and leave this world, it's haunting me. All I see is your beautiful face that grabbed my attention the first day I saw you...and when we made love, I remember thinking how lucky I was to be able to see, touch and feel such a gorgeous body...I need you to live babe..I need you to" I said incredibly sincerely and she just stared at me with tears in her eyes. We got to her house and she said "WHY ME!? I can't understand that Niall" she said with tears forming down her face. I think as a natural thing considering we are talking that we both went inside. "Because your so god damn beautiful, kind, smart, caring, gorgeous and I just am fascinated with you completely" I replied and she just stopped drinking her glass of water and had her head down. I wish she saw. Before I could control what had been said I blurted out "in other words Bek, I love you" and she looked up at me wide eyed. I went over to her and was shocked myself about what I said. I've never loved anyone. Ever. I never thought I would but honestly I do. I stood close to her in the kitchen, I could feel her breath on my face. "No...you don't" she said looking so sad and I tilted her chin up "yes, I god damn do". "And I know you love me too or at least have feelings for me" I added. She placed her lips onto mine before I could comprehend what's happening but I kissed her back eagerly and she wrapped her arms around my neck. She was kissing pretty passionately and aggressively which I found so dam sexy. I was squeezing her arse and motioned for her to jump up and she wrapped her legs around my torso and I sat her on the kitchen bench where she took my top off and I took off hers. She kissed and sucked my neck and shoulders. She's such a turn on. "I want you" I breathed out and she said "I know me too", and we stripped each other naked. Table was perfect height for me to fuck her like this. I entered her softly but got harder and harder and faster. We'd been going for 6 minutes when I was about to climax. I could feel her vagina tightening which meant she was about to cum. Our moans filled the house as we can in sync. She placed a kiss on my lips. "Bekka will you make me so happy and be my girlfriend?" I asked her anxiously. She stared at me and said "Niall-I-I...yes I will be your girlfriend" she finally let out and I kissed her so excitedly and she giggled cutely. She ran her hands over my body and said "we should get dressed before my parents get home ni" and we got up, got dressed but she needed some help due to her ribs. We sat on the couch as she helped me with legal studies. She's such a smartie and i struggle to pass an subject but I don't try. Her parents came home and we were snuggling on the couch watching a movie. "Ahem?" her mum coughed and Bekka just laughed and said "Meet my boyfriend", she smiled and just shook her head with a smile and walked off. I kissed her lips. My phone started ringing and it was Louis. "What?" i asked as i answered it and he replied "Get back home moron, we are hitting up joints"...."Sorry id love to but im busy" i said trying to not let Bekka think anything suspicious, because she had glanced over at me. "Dont be a pussy and party pooper Niall, get back here mate" he said and i didnt want to cause a scene so i replied "Yep sure whatever be there soon" and hung up. "Princess i have to leave, the lads are over and Louis will be pissed if i'm not there" i said to her and she smiled slightly and gave me a kiss and hug goodbye. "That's ok, be safe" and i walked out the door.