The Boy Next Door [slow updates]

VI

"What about me?" I ask seeing Peeta biting his lip nervously and pacing towards the living room mumbling to himself. I constantly wait for him to pull his shit together and tell me what's going on, so that it can be less complicated than possible but I think that he sees the future as something else.

I am just afraid that what he will tell me would affect our relationship. I know I sort of care for him in a way I don't even know and our path is coming to a stop where we could actually be friends since we act like it but it's different now. I'm weaker and everything seemed so bright but it's dull and confusing.

I didn't even know everything can change only in a matter of days.

"I just can't do it," he mumbles giving up finally walking towards me. "I can't."

I wasn't going to let him go down without a fight so I strike. "Come on Peeta. You can tell me anything. Don't be so afraid."

"But I am," he replies. Peeta kept talking on how afraid he was but I just couldn't focus from how close we are. It has been the closest we have ever been towards each other but part of me wants so desperately to kiss him it's undeniable. I also observe his every move: the way his lips move as he speaks, the way he double knots his shoelaces, the signs that could tell that he's nervous. I just don't know why I pay so much attention to him but I think I know what it is.

I'm falling for him.

It's just something about him that draws me toward him which cannot be explained.

"Katniss!" I was snapped back into reality as Peeta waves his hands in my face. I look at him with my wide eyes staring into his blue eyes. "Katniss!"

I immediately nod my head. "Yeah I get what you're saying."

Peeta raises an eyebrow unconvinced and immediately starts to test me. "Yeah?"

"Yeah," I repeat.

"So what did I just say?" He asks smirking knowing that I'll most likely get it wrong.

I try to think but I got nothing. I can't remember exactly what He said but at least I know the topic was how afraid he was was to tell me the thing he was going to say. I was going to lie but since I didn't have any lie to come up with, I just plopped onto the couch and groan knowing that I can't compete with him.

"I absolutely know the topic but not what you said," I muttered, loud enough so he can hear me. "Happy?"

Peeta nods smirking but his face immediately falls serious. "Katniss, I really have something important to tell you.

I sit up from the position I was in and turn to face him sitting on the couch, his eyes locked with mine, and his large, rough hands intertwining with my small cold one. He takes  a deep breath and immediately begins to speak.

"Katniss, I just wanted to tell you that-" he begins as soon as the I heard the doorbell ring.

"Sorry can you give me a second?" I ask hoping it's not a bad time.

He nods as I got up to open the door and see Gale and Madge standing in the doorway and my eye instantly comes emotionally with tears knowing from the amount of time I last saw them in person.

"Gale! Madge!" I scream wrapping my arms around them. They both smile and I cry into their arms embracing how I miss them and couldn't live my life without them. They were the people I trusted the most in my life and I couldn't care less if people looked at me in a weird way because I love these two more than I love myself.

From the  way I think that the three of us did this for so long, I release them and look at Peeta who nods and smiles for me but something tells me that he isn't okay. But right now, my friends are here so I can deal with him later.