Suicide Note

Part 7: Whats Going On?

TRIGGER WARNING, AND MATURE CONTENT WARNING!! Okay, continue.

I remembered i said i would never cut, would never do it again, but tears filled my eyes as i looked at my scar-filled arms from the night before. I said to myself,
You're fucking worthless,
As the blade gently pierced my skin and my eyes closed tightly because if the pain, but not a second later i felt relief.
Calm,
Like some sort of ghost, or as peacful as the breeze that cools my room at night.
This was all i needed to feel serene and like i was actually worth something, when I wasn't. And how i could forget about me and Ty's argument and how we're not friends anymore. I could forget about everything. Even the fucking school which completely sucks!
And then i remembered Kyle was coming over for sex in an hour.
And although i liked it, sometimes it isnt consensual.
I got ready with five minutes to spare, heard the doorbell ring, and went downstairs and opened the door.
Kyle walked in.
"Anyone home?" He gently asked in a slightly deeper, seductive tone that made me shiver.
"N-no.." I replied.
"Good. Soo.. living room or your room?" Kyle asked softly.
"You.. you choose." I reply, before feeling him pick me up, and i involuntarily wrap my legs around his waist. He gently kissed my neck, causing me to heat up, and he carried me up to my room as i held on tight, not minding the trash. He gently tossed me on the bed and i squealed, before he was hovering over me, and i gently wrap my legs around his waist.
He kissed me softly and deeply and i kissed back the same, my lips tingling as they touched.
I felt his member harden a bit against me and i slightly whimpered as i remembered how big it was.
He kissed down my neck, and i gently grasped onto his shirt as we were both sitting up now.
He lifted my shirt, revealing my bra, and he softly kissed down to my scars, knowing it'd sting like all hell, and he smirked as i winced in pain from it.
"Stupid whore.." he mumbles under his breath.
I flinch, due to him kissing my scars again.
He slides off my shorts and black lace panties, before getting undressed himself, and laying me gently back on the bed. He kisses down my body, kissing my clit gently to tease me, and my skin heats up.
He comes back up, and shoves his member inside of me, and i wince in pain, holding onto him tightly, and his grunts and moans fill the room for the next hour as he has his way with me.
He finally leaves, leaving me vulnerable and naked on my bed, i throw comfy clothes on, and fall back asleep, unphased as its often like this.
-_-_-__-_-__-_-_-_--__-_-_-_-_--__-_--__-_-_-_-__-_-_-_-_-_-_-__-_-_-_-_-_-__-_-_-_-_-_-___-_
I KNOW! Dammmnnnnn! Sorry for it being dirty but we all knew it'd happen. Dont kill me just cus it wasn't Ty!!