Not Always A Happy Ending

Chapter Fourteen - Mom.

Chapter Fourteen - Mom

---Hana's POV---

As soon as I opened the door to my house my mom was in my face. "WHERE THE HEEL HAVE YOU BEEN? WHY DIDN'T YOU COME HOME? WHY ARE YOU ALL SWEATY AND STINKY?" I rolled my eyes and just went straight to my room. My room didn't have much in it other than a pressure and a mirror and most of my cloths. I still come over here to get cloths but other than that I am never here. I grabbed some cloths then I went to the bathroom ignoring my mom and closing the door getting my phone and turing on music to drowned out my moms voice. I wasn't up for her today. I took a long and hot shower soaking up all the hot water I could for my dwindling stress level and my aching muscles.

Once I was out and putting my things up my mom was in my room ready to yell. I turn around and put my hand up speaking for her. "Before you start to yell at me, shut up I am not in the mood for. Now I will answer your questions of you would ask them in a normal voice." I said and then put my hand down for her to talk. She looked all angry at me and then just turned around and left. 

I kind of smiled to myself but then I kind have felt bad, but only for a moment. I really didn't want to deal with her right now. I sat on my bed contemplating if I should just go over to JayLeen's or not. After I get bored of playing on my phone for 20 minutes I head down stairs. My mom was in the kitchen and I new she was cooking. No, I am not going to leave mom right now. I think she needs me, its the only time she is actually home. I think to myself. I go over to the kitchen and my mom looks at me. "Hi sweetie." She says which makes me smile, she used to call me that all the time. "Hey." I say sitting at the bar. I stare at my mom for a minute because she just seems so different. She just looks so tired and worn down, almost like a used baseball glove. Okay wrong analogy, but you get what I mean. She just looks like she is ready to turn over and sleep for a very long period of time. "Hey mom?" I asked after a moment. She looked at me. "Yes baby." She says softly coming over to me. She is trying way too hard. 

"Are you okay? You seem down?" I asked her as kindly as possible. I wasn't used to being around my mom so I almost felt awkward around her. "Yeah, I'm okay now I have my little baby."She says then kisses my head. I smiled a small smile and then I started to play on my phone as she made some food. I had been reading a book I had just got on my phone when my mom said dinner was done. We ate in the living room and the food consisted of: Mac & Cheese, mashed potatoes ( for her I hated them), and some stew. From the stew I only ate the carrots and the meat even though there was like a million other things in it. I am weird so this is the only way I will eat carrots when they are all soft and stuff. We ate while watching some T.V. like we used to and I was actually kind of happy about it. 

The night ended all to quickly, I mean don't get me wrong I was exhausted and ready for bed, I just meant being with my mom. I has been a really long time. "Night baby." My mom says to me kissing my head. I hugged her. "Night... Mom." It still felt weird saying mom sometimes just because I never said that. There was so many things different nowadays and I couldn't do anything about them and I wasn't looking forward to it. I felt like I am going to wake up and she will be gone. But you never know, maybe I will be gone. 

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I woke up to my mom waking me up. I was sweating and felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. The only part I am not used to is that I didn't remember the dream. What so ever. The only part I remember is the sound of two cars colliding and thats all I need to know that I didn't want to remember is because I can already guess it. 

"Are you okay?" She asked after she had realized I was awake and I had calmed down a bit. I nodded to her still not wanting to talk as tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. I just let them, I didn't have the energy to wipe them away anymore there was no use, it seemed like they'd never stop. 

My mom didn't believe me of course and that was no shocker, but all I wanted to do was go crawl in Coles bed and let him make me feel safe again. And if not Cole than JayLeen. I couldn't be here much longer. My mom was trying to talk to me and I just kept starring outside at the stars trying to calm myself down enough to focus on what she is saying. It was 2 am and I knew I needed sleep if I was going to go to school tomorrow. I didn't feel like sleeping though, never again did I feel like sleep and I was surprised my insomnia hasn't taken charge in a long time. Maybe I am just that dead now. 

Author's Note:

Hey guys sorry, this is so far my shortest update and I feel really bad about that but I wanted to update today. Today was my first day of my Sophomore year and it was flipping crazy! I got most of the classes I wanted but the school is GIGANTIC and there is over 5,000 kids going there and there is still traffic jams and there are over filled classrooms and it is crazy. 

This year I get to take:

ASL1 (American Sign Language)

MCJROTC (Marine Corps Junior Reserve Officer Training Course) -Funner than it sounds-

And 

Transportation (Something something something idk) Its a mechanics class and I am in love with it so far! My teacher is 26 and he is pretty cool plus I have an '84 Bronco and it needs some work and as long as I bring the parts I get to have free labor and I get to work on it myself! YAY and so I am supper excited about that. But I do not have ANY classes with any of my friends besides 1 class and she isn't that close of a friend of mine so I am really worried because I am not good at making friends or being there in any of my classes mentally, so this will be a struggle and we also have a 6 minutes passing period and oh my Jessus the thing is HUGE school and too many kids are crammed in it so I have been late to almost all of my classes and the most stupid part is that if you get 3 tarty's you get an office referral and for being in ROTC that is a BIG no no and since I have been in trouble before with them I DON'T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN!!!!

So yeah thank you for reading my whole spule about school and today is only my first day so I will update y'all later and hopefully I can update almost everyday and I may make y'all choose a day a week for me to update but I don't  know just yet. 

Thank you for reading this chapter.

BYE

August 22, 2K16 10:22