Voice on the Radio

Chapter 9

After that meeting, my life became better. I'm happier and I'm more inspired. I guess this is really a good sign that our relationship would be resulting into something good.

Courting me was not supposed to be that difficult but since Jerry is a star and I'm just a normal person figuring out what my role in this world would be, it became very difficult for the both of us. He courts me privately for he doesn't want people to make more issues about me.

Well, yeah. I like it that way too. I mean, our first encounter made a big fuzz around the country and I don't want to be an instant star just because Jerry and I are going out. Another thing why I agreed to that format is that if ever, I don't want to be the reason why Jerry's career would be tumbling down. I'm here to support him and not destroy him.

Jerry continued courting me for about 3 months and then for some reason, he stopped. I was scared that he stopped because I made him wait for too long. But I guess I'm wrong because a person texted me asking me to go to the park where Jerry brought me before.

From: unknown number

Hey. Jerry asked me to text you.

I know you've been trying to keep

your relationship to yourselves

but he asked me to do this.

He told me to tell you to go to the

park where he brought you on the

day that he confessed to you.

To: unknown number

Hey. Thanks for the info and please

try to keep this to yourself. Aryt?

I went to the park as instructed. When I got there, I was surprised because there's a dinner set-up right in the middle of the park. I didn't go there first. I watched from afar while the people there are making the last minute preparations for that special dinner.

After a few minutes, a car arrived. I know that it is Jerry's car. I saw him go out while carrying a bouquet of roses. Even if I love roses, I still managed to keep myself from going near him. I want to know what would happen next.

Minutes have passed and still, there's no sign that Jerry is looking for me. I don't know why but I'm kind of feeling nervous already. I hate this kind of feeling.

So, to make myself less nervous, I tried calling him up. After a few rings, he picked up.

"Jerry, it's me."

"Hey. How are you?"

"Uhm. Fine but kind of bored. How about you?"

"I'm good. By the way, where are you?"

"At my house. Why?"

"Uhm. Nothing." Upon hearing those words, my heart tightened. I don't know what to say or what to do. For Pete's sake, is he cheating on me? I wasn't able to reply to him after that. I'm trying my best not to cry or be hysterical.

"Hey. Are you still there?"

"Uhm. Yeah. Uhm. I was wondering if we could talk personally. You know, if it's alright with you."

"Of course it's alright with me. When would you like to meet?"

"Uhm. Are you busy tonight?"

"Not really. But I still have to meet someone. Maybe after that we could talk." So, the dinner was not for me after all. How stupid of me to believe a simple text.

"Uhm. No. Let's just meet some other time. I don't want to cause any trouble on your part. Uhm. I have to go. I'm kind of hungry already. Bye." I hanged up without even waiting for his reply.

Still, I watched him from afar. After a couple of seconds, another car came and a girl went out from it. I wasn't able to see her face but based from her clothes and all, it seems like she's a star as well. Jerry stood up from where he was sitting and walked towards the girl. He gave the flowers to her and he kissed her on the cheeks. Little by little, my world starts to fall apart.

"Was the text a sign for me to stop dreaming that a person like him could really like or even love someone like me?" I told myself.

I looked at them again and they look so happy together. I guess that was my cue to leave. I walked to the place where I parked my car and went home half-broken.

"Why did I fall so easily? Now, I'm the loser again. I guess love is really not for me...

I guess I'm better off alone."