Lazy rants of life

8/22/16

ugh looks like another day passed already. another day closer to hell, aka school. wait, well actually both because i have bad self confidence

damn thats saying alot

oh wait, may i remind you guys what happened at freshman academy? (basically a week a couple weeks before school where freshmens go to see their new high school classes)

yeah it was terrible. so i went through my whole schedule of classes i would have for a day and guess what? 

i. literally. have. no. classes. with. any. of. my. friends.

im serious right now, im actually going to be that one loner in all of those teenage highschool movies! except i dont get a boyfriend in the end! and i dont make any new friends! and the mean popular prep kids dont get what they deserve for being bitches in the end!

ah life.

but seriously, i thought i would have at least ONE class with a friend but nooo i get nothing. and get this! at the school im going to, we have three different lunch periods. lunch A being the first, B second, and C last. and you probably guessed it again...i have no friends in my lunch period either. i mean if i didnt get any classes with my friends you would at least think you would be able to eat lunch with them...well heres just this to show you how much life really hates me.

i mean, its not like there's ten different lunches or something! theres only three! i mean, its not like theres a remote chance of me not being in the same lunch as them...its like my school really wants me to be a loner. welp, ya got your wish! cause there is no way im socializing with popular people. seriously. why is it that everywhere i go, in high school, im surrounded by a bunch of popular people?!?!!?!? from my classes to lunch-this school is a nightmare.

okay i literally just thought up a scenario in my head that is likely to never happen, but here it goes:

me: *walking around at lunch time, unsure of where to sit*

popular girl who just knows me from my old school: hey! (my name) come sit with us.

(this has happened before, where a popular person invites me to sit with them and their friends. trust me its not that they think im cool or anything. people at my school do these things to make it so that they look good, like ohh look at me! im not a bully! im being nice and accepting other people! bitch please. you suckers never commit to anything that good, your just trying to have a good image and reputation, so that when teachers see you cause they apparently always pick popular people as their favorites, they nominate you for those rewards you see all the time like "best friend" or "best classmate" or even worse, "best role model" eww.)

me: oh um... okay... *goes and sits down with them awkwardly*

me:*eating in silence listening to all the popular girls talking stupid drama*

me: *finishes eating and starts sketching in my notebook*

popular girl: what are you drawing?

me: *closes the book* eh nothing.

popular girl: c'mon lemme see! its probably really good.

me: you won't get it (most likely fandom trash drawings) plus i only show my drawings to my friends.

popular girl: well we can be friends!

me: o-o (boi) im not going to be your friend just so that i can show you my pictures. i know you don't even like me anyway. 

me: *gets up and leaves*

yeeee this story was so amaze aaayyayayaaaa

its funny because i get asked that question alot, like oohhh i wanna see your drawings! pleeaaassee!!! like no. i dont show popular people my drawings because, 1, they don't get it, and 2, because they dont get they think im weird and start rumors n shit.

trust me i know, this has happened to me before. there was this one girl i used to be friends with (she was so totally fake) and i always used to show her my drawings. this girl wasn't popular at the beginning of the school year, but as the year went on, she started talking to other popular people, and idk what got into her but she started talking shit behind my back and being rude to me, all that drama.

she's going to a different school now to ha if yo face bitch.

but anyway, i would show her my drawings...and a little birdie told me once that she said things like i was annoying and weird, that stuff, you get what im saying. and once i heard that, i stopped showing her my drawings. 

sometimes i feel like she got jealous and started talking shit...but then again idk thats just something i assumed. 

who knows it doesn't matter now. but let me warn you. if you are an artist who draws fandom stuff and oc's and all that, i recommend you don't share that stuff with popular people. they WILL turn on you. there have been scenarios at my school where other people actually got their art STOLEN. yes you heard me STOLEN!!!! from popular people just so that they would look cooler because they could draw. im not even going to START on those stories... but all im saying was... there were tears. alot of them. 

(yeah guys gonna end this entry here, gonna go to bed. i would have gotten into those stories but im running out of time and my parents are getting bitchy again. :P comment if ya want me to write them in another chapter or something. laters)