Darling you'll be okay (vic fuentes is my dad ?!?)

Chapter 9

(A.N FINALLY A FULL LENGTH CHAPTER ITS A MIRACLE •-•)

I plop my small figure onto the nice cold couch, as all the guys fight over the shower. Jaime hobbles up to the door, before he could even make it up one stair I ran to his aid, he had broken his foot you see so I thought I would be kind and help him up up the stairs. I drag him up as quick as I could, them jump away from his stank body.

I flop back down to where early siting position and who out my phone so fast it nearly flys from my hands. 1 unread message from _____. I reluctantly unlocked my phone and it opened in messages, "Zoe what ever I have done please don't be mad I can make it up to you. I miss you please come back, I promise I'll be a better boyfriend. Why did you leave me here with all these nut jobs, if you dint come back they might eat me or something", I laughed but in all seriousness I shouldn't answer it would only make me and him more love sick.

I sigh and place my phone on the table and pull my arms to my chest leaning back in the couch. Tony came and sat next to me and flicked me with his wet hair, "what's up chickaaay", he asks rubbing against my arm, "nothing" I sigh. "Come on I can tell there's something in your chest", he wines, "that's would be my boobs" I reply. He laughs and pulls out his phone and brings up a picture, you know your lucky to be here with us because this tour none of us were aloud to bring guests, I had to leave my girlfriend behind", he showed me a picture of a beautiful young woman, perfect face, long white hair and icy blue eyes.

A small tear dripped from my eye to my check, "what's wrong señorita", Tony looked worried, "she *sniff* looks my like my mum". He pulled me in for a hug, "I'm sorry", "no I'm fine, just being a baby", I wipe the tears from my eyes and pull myself from Tonys grasp, climb over the table and walk to my bunk.

I pull my curtain closed as hard as I can, I didn't want to talk to anyone. I wanted to be alone, forever. No why am I being this way, Tony can date anyone he wants it shouldn't matter if she looks like my mum, there is always going to be people who look like my mum in this world and I had to get over it. Time for I walk to calm my nerves.

"Dad can I go for a walk please", Vic looked up from his computer for a second, nodded then looked back down. I step out to be greeted by warm summer winds, it was nice out here. I felt free. I slowly take my hand of the rail and step onto the hard ground when I hand touches mine, I jump and just stare at it. Then smoker a familiar smell and herd that familiar laugh, it was Mike he had come out here for a smoke.

"So what you doing out this late", he asks puffing out all the smoke, "needed some air" I rely looking down at my feet. Mike pats the ground next to him motioning for me to sit down, I take his offer and sit on the edge of the curb next to him. "What's it like living with your brother and doing everything with him", I asked, "well it's pretty great really I mean, we don't fight like most brothers do".

"I have a brother you know", I look at him making shapes out of the smoke, "really how come Vic didn't get him too". "He ran away when we were in the foster house and then they deported him somewhere because he was too much to handle, *sigh* I miss him, I want him back! I loved him so much", I started to sob into my hands, Mike obviously didn't know what to do as he just patted me on the back. I got up and went back inside, it was getting cold out here now.

Vic was at the table with Tony trying to write, I sat down with a packet of pebbles and listened in, "she cries herself to sleep at night", I knew the song was written for me, I felt bad in a way. I left again but this time just to the bathroom to get changed. I slipped into my NRL shorts and my Of Mice & Men shirts.

I hadn't seen Jaime all night since I helped him up the stairs, time for an adventure or just a walk to his bunk. His curtain was pulled and it seemed as if he was talking to himself, maybe he was sleep talking. I knelt down and whispered, "Jaime are you up". He pulled open the curtain to reveal his laptop, he was skypeing someone. It was a girl, a pretty girl. I guess it was his girlfriend. I lent in close to him, "who's she" I whispered. He laughed "this is ________ my girlfriend, "________this is Vic's daughter". She waved then got up to get something, I decided now wasn't the time to talk to Jaime so I left him to talk to his girlfriend.

I lay in my bunk and thought deep thoughts. Why am I here. Why was I born. Why am I still alive. Why does everyone hate me. Why can't I die. Why dies the world exists. Why did god make me this way. Why am I so ugly. Why am I do fat. Why am I bipolar. Why am I depressed. Why do I get bullied. Why am I schizophrenic. Why am I bulimic. Why does anyone even bother with me.

It's not fair that no one gets guests but Vic has me and I don't like living this way. If I can't love the life every other child gets then why should I live. So I need to die. Tonight is the night.

(A.N IM NOT TO SURE OF PTV'S RELATIONSHIPS AT THE MOMENT BUT I MIGHT START CALLING TONYS GIRLFRIEND ERIN BECAUSE IM PRETTY SURE HES WITH ERIN BUT IDK)