Make it Through the Day (Young M.A)

(2) Selfish or Pride

self·ish

ˈselfiSH/

adjective

(of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

I pulled up to Imani's crib still trying to figure out what the fuck I should say. I don't wanna tell her some shit like I am sorry because I feel like I'm to good for that. Well let me not say too good I'm just to prideful to admire I was wrong. I was about to get out the car when I saw another dyke bitch I never seen before come out Imani's house and kiss her. I jumped out the car and ran up to this nigga. "Yo excuse me who the fuck are you?" I asked getting in the niggas face. "I'm not fucking asking again bitch." We were chest to chest spit flying out my mouth waiting for an answer. "Imani do you know this fucking bird." Asked the dyke bitch. "Baby I'll tell you about it later alright." She said. "Baby really Imani really the fuck is this shit. Who the hell is this bitch Imani who??" She ignored my question and went into the house leaving the door open for me. " If I catch you around here anymore we gonna have a problem. " I said while walking into her house.

"Yo Imani what was that man?" I said slamming her door and walking into the kitchen where she was cooking. She continued to cook the rice and corn and fried chicken. "You wanted to talk so talk." I sat down at the kitchen table and took a deep breath. "It's not that easy to apologize to you but you know i love you. You always held me down when I needed you the most and I ain't trying to lose you." I said under my breath. This girl meant everything to me but I don't know how to tell her exactly how to say it without sounding soft. "You are so mother fucking selfish man. You don't realize when you have a good bitch on your side and then you wanna go fuck other girls. That's not how shit works Kat and you know it. Don't think you coming here fixed shit because it didn't. If you really gave a fuck about us you would have worked on it with me instead of saying yeah we should fucking break up." Everything she was saying hit a nerve. I got up and grabbed my hat off the table. She got into my face and continued to talk shit. "Did you even fucking care that I held you down helped you chase your dreams. I was fucking down for you man you are a mother fucking coward. " I grabbed her face and kissed her with anger. She was hesitant at first but eventually kissed me back. I don't know what came over me but what ever it was it felt right for the moment. I picked her up and carried her to our old room and threw her on the bed not breaking the kiss. We both aggressively ripped our clothes off not waiting for anything. I kissed down her neck. Biting it very aggressively but sexually. She moaned loudly turning me on. I went down to her chest kissing and sucking roughly on her. She pushed my head down to area. With no hesitation I ripped off her pants and panties and went down on her. Licking and sucking on on her making her squirm and moan. I bit and spat all on her making sure not to leave any area dry. I slid my fingers inside of her pumping in and out of her. "Mhmmm." She said as i ate and fingered her. I went up to kiss her lips softly but very passionate. As soon as i was going to get up and strap up her phone rung. "H-Hello." She said trying to push me off her. I went back down to eating her. "Mhmmm damn wait." She said. "You on your way?" She asked. She moaned a little louder causing the person on the phone to get bothered. I'm not sure what happened on the phone but they hung up on her. "Sshe is on her way you got Ooooo shit you have to go." I got up off of her and started to put my clothes on. Man fuck this. "Man this is bull shit nah im fucking out of here." I went into her kitchen I grabbed my hat. "Kat don't be like that. It was well needed but it can't happen ever again." I sucked my teeth and walked out the house and saw her girl pulling up. "Nigga let me know how I taste." I flipped her the finger and got into my car. I need to go to the studio and get my mind off stuff.