Faith

Pill

TUE, AUG 23, 2016 6:44 P.M.
HOW many pills did I take? 3.... It didn't kill me..... But I wanted to say something else....... Last night around 8:45 almost 9 o'clock my dad was getting mad at me..... He said to me I never FUCKING listen.... I told him whatever if I break something I'll pay for it.... He then left and my anger rose up.... I started crying and wanted to just start breaking things.... I calmed down enough to go back inside my house. I wanted to leave and go to my friends house. I went to bed... I started crying a little because I realized the only person who cared.... Didn't want to talk to me... I lost my best friend...... I wish he was there because I would've hugged him and not let go and still keep crying..... He hates me now... I lost him because of my stupidity.... The next day during English I couldn't stop staring at you.... I want to talk to you so bad... But I knew you didn't want to.... I got home and realized I didn't want to be here.... I took 3 pills... I wanted to take more... But I knew I couldn't for some reason.... I wanted to leave so bad...... I get you hate me.... I want you to not hate me.... I cried almost every night wishing I didn't say anything.... If I could I would take everything I said back.... Because I need you SO BAD....... But I'll never get you back...... ⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆And when I just. Wrote that I started to cry because I really need you....
"Give me reason, but don't give me choice... Because I'll. Make.... That same.... Mistake again..." -James Blunt.....