A girl named Alexis Carter was walking down a dark suspicious alley where no one would go. When she gets home no one was there, the door was wide open, but everything was gone. When she screamed out mom and dad I'm home there was no answer. Alexis was getting suspicious and worried of where her parents went.
Three weeks has past, then she finally realized that she was abandoned by her own parents. Ever since that day she was left to fall into depression. No one was there to guide Alexis through her life. This was the end of her regular normal girl life.
No one understands of what she meant about it was the end.
Days gone by in tears and blood. She got so depressed and she started to self harm. No one really cared about her. It's like her life was over. She always thinks of why people don't like her. Is it because she's ugly?
Maybe it's because she is lonely?Worthless? Useless? Unloving?
No one knows why or they won't tell her.
"People think I am crazy or going insane. I have been hearing voices in my head saying all these questions. Maybe I should just stop breathing or living. There's just no point. No one will ever like me of how they use to. It's scary hearing these voices because you think they are real but it's just a brew or a myth that's coming to life." Screamed Alexis on pain.
"I am just a bubble that could burst into tiny, little particles that just floats around like they are useless. Am I real or fake? These are answers I need to know, any question I ask I need them to be answered. I am so curious of what could happen. It's like they are just haunting me and stabbing me as I pour out all this questions like a waterfall." Exclaimed Alexis.
Alexis was thinking, "Maybe my parents should of stayed so I would not have to go insane like I always do."
"Maybe one day it would just stop. You never know who is going to turn on you. Are you ever scared of life and of what it could do? Well, to be honest I am terrified cause there are bad things in this cruel dark evil world. Sometimes they don't exist so it could be quite the adventure of seeing what is scary and what is harmless or harmful?" Said Alexis shivering in the dark abandoned wooden cold house.
"It has been a month without my parents and my inner demons they have gotten worse everyday or even every second. Life is moving quick for me. What if I am running out of air in my lungs and don't have much time to live? What if I am going to get murdered or attacked the next day? Life can be so scary for me." Said Alexis.
"Losing my parents was probably the toughest time I had in my life. How would you feel if you thought that you loved someone so much that they would never leave your side ever? I would feel so happy, but guess what life is not like that." Exclaimed Alexis.
Alexis sometimes wishes that she never even existed or born.
"It has always been tough losing or having to face life with no one. Feeling sad and sorrow inside that never escapes and even if it does, not all of it leaves. People need to understand that when someone says "I'm fine" it really means they are the opposite. There are attention borders out there. Sometimes you can't escape your problems."
"Hurting is the worst pain anyone could have because it is like a small piece of your heart crumbles and combust in to bombs were it will eventually explode leaving crumbs that are meaning less to you. Do you know how much that hurts? It hurts so much."
"Depression is another kind of pain that will never leave. You could be the happiest, friendliest person in the whole world."
"Life can really suck at times but you will get through with a huge bright friendly cozy smile on your beautiful unique face. That will always hide your pain anytime. The day will go by faster if you have a positive attitude with a smile on your face."
"Never be afraid because what's in front of you will probably make your day if you pay attention. Life could be amazing if you actually try to make it better than usual. Doesn't matter of how much effort your putting in, it matters if your doing it right."
"You matter and everyone matters in this very world. Life is beauty if you can make it that way. These are life learning lessons until we die. Practice makes you better not perfect. No one is perfect so don't even say she is perfect cause really no one is perfect."
"Don't overrate things that don't need to be overrated. These are lessons everyone need to know when your parents just abandon you all alone.
This is life!" Alexis would always whisper to herself or wrote into her thick, precious, dark navy blue, hard cover notebook.
"Secrets are all in this and I hope no one finds out who I really am now."
Alexis use to be this preppy, happy, joyful, little, spontaneous, girl. Now all things have changed. Nothing will go back. She doesn't even go to school because she doesn't have money really. Alexis barely has any to survive on her own. Everyday she looks for a job, but no one will hire her.
"I just feel so all alone. I wish someone at least could love me. I need to have a positive attitude to make it through my days. Maybe one day I will find someone and I would happy like I use to be." As Alexis is talking to herself.
Alexis Carter has been in so much pain you won't believe it.
"Everyone probably thinks what a attention hoarder I am. I am so many great things as people just classifies me as a freak." Alexis said as tears rolled down her face.
"I am the best I can be"
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Life of being lonely
General FictionThere was a girl named Alexis Carter that got abandoned by her parents when she was 10 years old. She was living on her own until she met someone named Christian Bate. Christian Bate suffers from stage 4 skin cancer. She was diagnosed with it 8 year...
