Life of being lonely

Chapter 5: Sickness

I am throwing up. This is the first time I got really sick. I don't know what's wrong with me. Please help me. Like all of a sudden I get up sick. Ya I can understand a tummy ache. I am so scared, I lost so much weight to. Is it because I never ate anything for 4 days now. It is a bit scary. What if I am gonna die and these are my last days on earth. Will something happen to me. I think it's a good thing I have someone really close to me to help me because I am sick.
The next day has come by fast I feel even worse. Maybe I am going to die tonight or tomorrow who knows what could happen. I sometimes wish that I could have one of my parents to come back and take care of me. It's been like 2 years the last time I saw them. I miss them so much. Maybe one day they will come back. No one should feel the pain that I did ever. It's the worst kind of pain I have ever felt in my life and I hate it it never leaves me at all.
It's not fair that I am sick in bed almost dead and is really pale. I am throwing up my guts all day yesterday and today. Life is just isn't fair at all. I feel like my lungs are feeling up with ice cold water and I can't breathe. Ugh my throat is on fire and is burning me so much. I am starting to throw up blood on o the floor because I am missing the sink. All these symptoms might lead to something I have, but I don't know what. I am really curious of what is going on in my body. It feels like it is getting destroyed in me.
            "Christian I need help I am dying of oxygen. Help me!" That's what I said Christian as tears roll down my flawless face. It's been a week I thought I just had a really bad flu. Everyday it's getting  worse I don't know what to do. I can't even eat because it hurts too much. It is a sign that I am getting weaker and less powering. Am I anorexic? I have to keep this a secret from Christian that I am worse I won't be getting better. Christian gets worried easily and I don't want to worry her that much. As soon as she gets worried everyone gets worried. It makes me so angry that everyone doesn't really care about me and they say they do, but really they don't even care one bit. Ugh, like oh my gosh they just need to stop. I swear if they get angry at me for thinking that, I think I am gonna scream at the top of my lungs so everybody can see me explode everywhere.
     The next day I saw a stray white fur with black fur that had bright yellow eyes with a pink nose kitty walk beside me for an hour. It helped me feel better and keep my mind off of my sickness. I think I was just over stressed about my days, but still I am very sick. I am on the edge of death, I think. It's okay Christian is still by my side for the adventure until eventually one of us dies. It probably won't happen seeming how we are still moving everywhere. Still the stray kitty was walking with joy beside us. It was so adorable, it is just baby kitty. I begged Christian if we could take it home with us because it probably got abandoned by its own parents too.
      The day went one with joy because we got a new kitten that was lost. I was so excited that we could actually keep the kitten. Yay! What should name it? As answers poured of of me. Maybe I should name it skittles. Everyone likes skittles or maybe Abby, that's a good name. Christian wanted something more unique. So we decided that we were gonna name it Chloe. I thought it would suit her too. Like even calling the kitten that was a unique choice. The kitten responded to that name instantly.
    As the morning came by quick, we had to go out and get food. The cat was starving, so we went around looking for loose change and we got about $20 to spend. So we went to the store and got kitty food because the kitty needed food more than us. As the days grew, I got even more sick than usual it made me sad. I wish I could get better soon like what if I don't get better than I might die. I can't die now I still got so much to live for.
      One day I was crying because I didn't want to die. I loved my life so much! Christian was sad too, so ya we were both sad. Christian told me that she might not have a lot of time to live because her cancer got a lot worse and she is coughing up blood into the sink. She is feeling dizzy and now I am getting depressed and worried. I don't want to see her dead in the apartment the next day. So I took Christian to the hospital and the doctor said she will be okay. Just some new symptoms came and that was her reaction. So the kind doctor gave Christian some pills that he paid by himself and he said these should help her.
       So me and Christian went back to the apartment and Christian passed out from taking the pills, but it was going to help her with her symptoms. Ugh I just want this day to be over like right now.  As soon as she new it it was night time. Everyone was asleep and I kept on writing in my journal and that was my adventure with Christian, but I am still ill.
       "Live a life that your proud of"
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