ARIAS POV:
I stared at the walls at Jason's smiling... but for what? I didn't know how I was supposed to feel. now he just has to settle for me. maybe I should listen to what Jason said. maybe he was right but I'm not sure about anything anymore. I miss him, but he misses her.
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I woke up the next day to be laying in Jason's couch. I didn't want to be home when Ezra got there. I woke up to 12 missed calls from him as 5 missed messages. I decided I should head home. I walked in.
"Ezra?..." I said looking around corners trying to find him. he was sitting at his desk. I saw him looking at their photo together. I put my hand on his shoulder. I tried to pull it away but he grabbed it holding it there leaning his hand against it. I sighed pulling away.
"where were you? I came home to nothing and nobody..." he sighed
"Ezra..." I said once more he turned the chair around to face me. he stood up in front of me. I took a step back.
"why weren't you at home?"
"I was at Jason's.."
"Jason? allisons brother?"
"yes.."
"why? I fell asleep there on his couch. we just talked all night.. mostly about you..."
"aria.."
"Ezra I'm sorry-"
he cut me off
"no I am... I just-"
I cut him off
"left?"
"I know." he said looking down
"what hurts is that we never really said goodbye. We just kind of ended."
"ended?" he questioned
"Ezra what was I supposed to expect? I hate it when you're not around. And the fact you didn't call.. I had to fear the worst."
"what was the worst you had to fear? her being alive?" he asked
"You choosing her!" I yelled looking down at my ring moving it around
"I was coming back for you... I wasn't leaving you.. I just had to go and figure this out. she had to know."
"Know what?" I asked
"know that I was moving on. Aria there wasn't one moment over the 5 years I dated her did I ever think about proposing. Aria it only took a couple of weeks of you coming back to me for me to know."
"really?"
"yes... didn't you know?"
I stood there in silence sad as my eyes teared up.
"oh god." he whispered. he walked towards me and pulled me in.
"I didn't know what that kiss meant. was it goodbye forever? was it I'm sorry? was it over?" I cried into his chest
"I shouldn't have left you... not like that. unsure of my feelings for you? Aria I love you. you're the most important person in my life. I'm sorry I put her first for awhile.-"
"no I understand. you wouldn't be you if you didn't. thank you for being honest with me. I didn't want you just having to settle for me."
"Aria I'm not settling for you. I chose you a long time ago. I'd chose you in a hundred different life's and a hundred different ways... I'll never stop choosing you."
