My perfect life

Part 31

Amal

When I reached home I saw dad talking to someone on phone .he seems like in lot of stress . I walked towards him and kept my hand on his shoulder,may be because he realized it's me he started getting calm . And suddenly dad ended the call and turn towards me ,he had worry filled faces .
Me:dad ,is everything alright?
Dad: yes dear ,everything is fine
Me: dad what is it you look like you are stressed you know you can share anything with me right?
Dad: yes dear I know my daughter is so strong and she can handle any difficult thing but this is not any business thing that can be solved it's about life dear.
Me: life ? What are you implying dad ,is anyone in our troop is in danger? Is everyone safe in our orphanage ? Is anyone try to kidnap any of our staff ? Dad is someone trying to blackmail? Is any treat for your life dad? What is it dad tell me fast .
Dad: dear when you asked about everyone's life you left one person
Me: who dad?
Dad: you.....,
Me: dad what are you trying to say
Dad: your life is at risk dear.someone wants to kill you pretty much
Me: did  someone called you or any letter came
Dad: no
Me:then
Dad: dear when you left your car was breakdown by someone .
Me: what?
Dad but I reached office safe
Dad; the killer just wanted to scare you but plan flop since when you reached the office ,I sent our new car instead of the car you went ,you didn't realize it because you were not looking at the surrounding .dear I am scared.
Me:dad how can you feel weak . Yes I know you are scared because of my life and  my face. Since my face carry your daughters looks
Dad: you think like that ,that because you have her face ,I am loving you! no  dear the truth is I love you because I see you as mine only. I never seen you as just a shadow.yes I have you my daughters face but that didn't mean I only love her.
Yes it's true I made your face as her because I want see my daughter but when I started living with you I understand that you can't never be my daughter because you are way better than my daughter.you are an ideal daughter a father can ever ask god.
I wish I had you as my daughter from the beginning onwards.

When dad left me there in the hall
I felt like someone had poured ice water on me .i never wanted to hurt my dad but today I became the one who hurt him more than anyone ever did.i told all that stuff  because I was angry and I just wanted to pull it out otherwise this will make my plan a failure but now I have turn the one man who always supported me through every difficult step against me .i don't when my tears started falling I couldn't control myself and I didn't control my tears this time. I ran to our garden and sat on the floor .i felt like my heart was squeezing shut because of the pain I am going through physically .i never thought my fate is this much bad that whenever someone brings a smile to my face I make them run away from me . Today I hurt a man who stood up for me,who take care of me, who look after me when I was I pain, who make me who iam today ,who made me his daughter, who gave me the love I always wish to have and what did I return , hurt ness I don't know why I said that at that moment now I regret it like hell,I wish to apologize but I know I have hurt him a lot that this time he will leave me alone . I was sitting in the garden my emotions were shown as climate because it was damn raining whole day .suddenly I felt someone putting an umbrella covering me completely from getting drenched I didn't turn around an look because I know who it is .i now it's dad ,I couldn't face him now because of my words.then I felt a hand on my shoulder that was it for me ,I started crying my heart out before dad
Me: dad I am sorry I am really sorry
I shouldn't have hurt you like this
I am a worst daughter . You are the best dad a girl can ask and I am blessed to have you and what did I do I hurt you like hell. Pleas dad say something or otherwise hit me with stick but don't keep quiet I can't hold your quietness .plz dad say something

After a long gap

Dad:it's alright come on in .i don't want you to catch a cold,

I turn around and hold my dad from waist and hug him tightly and dad understand what I am going through .when we reached the room dad pulled the curtain and tied it up and came towards me who was trying you sleep,
He kissed my head and said a word  which is going to become my new esteem and that is searching of Anagha