My perfect life

Continuation

Amal

I was shocked will be an understatement .when farhan came back to me and took my hand I felt like I am back in heaven ,his grip was so tight that I know there will be marks after he leave my hand ,but I didn't care ,because I missed this holding ,care ,love everything about him now when he is showing all this I am forgetting about my mission .from his eyes I can see how angry he is because of my dressing .there was nothing wrong about it .it was a simple salwar which is sleeveless .nowadays everyone wear such dresses then why is this guy getting angry .ehhh sometimes I don't understand him .he was the one who said that I can do ,wear anything I want without his permission . I don't have to do as he says because he is not taking this relation as something important .he said it's deal for him ,like i am a deal for him . In a way I know it is a deal but the heart I carry with me always loved the care and love this man show to me,who betrayed me at the crucial step in my life when I needed him the most ,then also this heart has hope for his love ,it now also beats for him ,only for him. May be this heart is destined to be with him only ,but then what is the justice it gives to the girl who lost her identity for him ? who was betrayed by him? I didn't realize he took me to my room by that time.when we reach the room he stopped for a moment like he saw something different .'oh didn't he think that I am not organized ' poor boy only my face changed nothing else changed in me even the way i like to keep my room ,yes my dressing also changed because I know if I wear the dress that Aleena once used he will surely get doubt . it's not the time to show my real identity now it's time for some war .

He took me to my closet and took a dupatta from it .he made me stand in front of the mirror . I look at him through the mirror we both looked great together . He was also looking at me with love which I have longed for but now everything is different whenever I saw that care or love I always felt pain in my heart like someone is piercing a knife in my heart .my heart is still bleeding because of his betrayal why farhan ? Why? Didn't I loved you enough ? Did I do something which made you hate me like that? My thoughts were broken when I felt his finger lingering on my skin ,after a longtime I felt alive my skin felt alive .i wanted to feel it more but I can't everything now also is a deal for him . I never was someone special I always always was  a  deal or a toy with which he played ,but he didn't care to check whether the toy had a heart which can be broken because of his game. He didn't care about her now I feel  the pain getting more unbearable knowing that I was a toy for him and Ciya my own cousin who once I considered my sister . I blinked my eyes to remove the tears that were threatening to come out. He was looking at me like I am his life but the truth was Ciya was his life. I stepped back and thanked him for the help . I walked out to see my dad looking at me with concern .i know what my dad is thinking he know me too well to know that how weak I am from heart but he don't know that his daughter has locked her heart from a long time she is a girl without heart now , once again I failed to keep my heart at distance from him but not anymore.

I walked towards dad with my brightest smile

Me:dad are you alright
Dad: my dear do you think your dad has became old
Me: oh please have you seen yourself in mirror  today .you look like my brother.
Dad: oh god compliment  from my dear ...impressive.
Me: stop it stop teasing me
Dad: me teasing and that to you .oh dear why would I do such a thing ,(dad look at me again with concern )
Dear are you alright ! don't hide your pain you know I will always support you
Me:dad I am not hiding my pain and I know my dad will support me but not now I have to face this alone then only I can win this war .how much walls I build around my heart to protect it from getting hurt again it will go through that pain when I look at farhan.to overcome this I have to endure this pain so dad don't worry your daughter is strong.she won't fall weak .trust me
Dad: that I know my dear ,my daughter is strong and she is beautiful that even her enemies can't keep their eyes away from her
Me:( blushing ) dad please
Dad: okay okay come lets go down.

We moved downstairs to see everyone even Ciya looking at me .i saw jealousy in her eyes because all the men and women were looking at me like i am some model from newyork vintage collection. I descended down the step with dad holding my hand with possessiveness . I thought (men)

function started and all men left the women in the hall and moved to garden . A girl of my age came and started applying mehendi on my hand .the designs were good it was an Arabic design .after applying mehendi she asked me something which made me mute because I don't know what to reply.

Design: what letter do you want to write
Me:(speechless , I don't know what to reply )
I heard someone behind me said to the designer to write F letter and that was what that designer wrote
  

              F- farhan

I feel good to write his name but my mind was telling me to wash it off ,but I can't since everyone will be looking at it after it gets  dried so I kept it for my sake .

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