i wanna cry but from happiness
so for guard one guard instructors got a huGE ball of yarn and made us do this weird activity. this ends up with me having a sister that i always wanted and a feeling of happiness and family (that i dont get often)
so austin wrapped a little yarn around her hand and told us to throw the ball of yarn to whoever we wanted. we had to say smth nice about that person, a compliment if you will, and then they would wrap a lottle around their hand, throw the ball, and so on.
i dont know how long that lasted but oh my god iy was fantastic. things i learned:
as a new person im doing really well
that even tho i had a broken finger i still tried to spin, and nailed 90% of my tosses and work
that i remind someone of a little sister? (anybody who knows me knows that ive always wanted a sister and i teared up a little)
that the instructors are so amazing
that the Guard is really really nice and one big family.
anyway, what ended up happening is we had this huge web (we were sitting in a circle) that linked us to everyone, one way or another. we were told to stand up and when we did, Austin took out some scissors.
((this is paraphrased so badly oml)
"find a string and trace it. look at how we are all connected by each other. we are strong together. however, " austin picked up scissors," with one dollar cheap scissors, anything can break us apart. "
she cut the strings and we all kinda gasped. and thus, she went around until all ties had been cut and all we had were the strings wrapped around our hands.
so now i have some bracelets to forever remind me of my family and friends that i have.
anD because im such a symbolic person i went home and teared up reaLLy badly - which doesnt seem that bad but i rarely cry unless its this big ass trauma sort of thing.
and yeah. thats what i was talking a out in the last chapter
look at how neat that is wow
(this is the journey of making said bracelets)