I am so fat. I feel so gross. I am a disgrace. How could i ever let myself get this way i wonder. I'm so fucking disgusting and so much more. I feel so disgusted by my weight and self that i can't even begin to say everything.
I don't want to keep slipping like this, i want to just be free and ok. I want to just be happy instead of happy with pain. I don't want all this shit to control my mind.
I just want it to stop now before i go fuckin crazy
If anorexia was alive or at least an inanimate object..... Bleh...
I probably sound ridiculous but this isz howz i feel rn.
I'm about to go to sleep so hopefully I'll fee better tomorrow
