Anything To Let Go of Him

Chapter 8

Chapter 8-

3 months later

After Brittany and Sam finished a beautiful dinner Sam prepared at Brittanys house, they moved the party over to the living room couch. It started with making out. Then Sams hand took a detour farther up Brittanys thigh. Of course, Brittany pulled away, moved his away, and sat up straight.

Um, are we going to do this? Brittany asked. I mean, Im fine with doing it. But, if we do, theres something I need to tell you first.

Brittany, I love you. I feel close to you. So close, I want to do this. With you. And you can tell me anything, Sam said softly. Its not going to make me love you less.

Okay, Brittany started. Remember that night before my accident? At the party? When I told you and everyone else about my pregnancy scare?

Sam nodded. Yes.

Well, it turns out, it wasnt a scare, Brittany confessed. I was pregnant.

What do mean was? Sam asked.

My accident caused me to miscarry, Brittany said. But it doesnt change anything. I love you, too. Im on the pill, and I have condoms. All that matters right now is us.

Sam stood up. Brittany, thank you for telling me. But I dont want to us to give ourselves to each other the minute after you tell me that if it werent for a car accident almost killing you, you would be due to have a baby in about a month. Its not exactly romantic. And I kind of wanted my first time to be romantic. At that, he grabbed his jacket and rushed out the door.

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A week later, Brittany walked up to Sams front door and knocked. Sam answered. I came to make to make it up to you, Brittany said holding up a picnic basket and the movie Valentines Day.

Sam let her in, and from then on, the couple ate the lovely dinner Brittany brought over while watching the movie. And the night ended with Sam and Brittany making love. With protection.

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Brittany had spent the night at Sams house after they had made love. And it was fine, considering they wouldnt get caught because neither his parents or his siblings were home. And when they woke up, they got ready and drove to school together. Sam and Brittany were in love. They were completely and utterly happy with each other.

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At the end of the week, during Glee, Brittany and Mike were performing a dance number for Booty Camp. And right in the middle of the dance, Brittany felt sick to her stomach and ran out of the auditorium to the bathroom. She kneeled down at the toilet bowl and started blowing chunks. She came up for air and all that came out was one simple word. Crap, Brittany said as if she knew why she was puking.

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After school, Brittany walked straight to the Walgreens at the end of the street and purchased several different brand pregnancy tests. She went home and after she peed on each stick, she set it down on the counter. And a few minutes after she finished every stick, she checked them. Its like this time, she wasnt nervous. Its like she was mentally stating, Eff my life. She looked over the counter at the sticks and checked each stick. The majority of them said positive. But after what happened the last time. And her turning out to be pregnant, even when every test read negative, she had to go to a doctor to be completely sure.

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The next morning, Brittany knew the first thing she had to do that day, was tell Sam. But she seemed fearless. There was something about already going through that same situation (minus having to tell the maybe baby daddy) that made her fearless about the situation. And that day, right at noon, as she was walking into the auditorium to tell Sam that she was probably pregnant with his child, she wasnt scared. At least not for herself. But for the boy whos virginity she took, whos first time might have conceived a child. And for the life that might have been growing inside her, who would have to grow up being adopted. For Brittany knew nothing about having a baby. Let alone, raising one.

So whyd you want to meet? Sam asked as Brittany was nearing him, walking up the stage steps. Did you have a round 2 in mind? He said with a goofy grin on his lower face.

No. I need to tell you something so Im just going to come out and say it, Brittany started. I dont for sure yet. But theres a likely probability that I am pregnant with your kid right now. As she said that, she never slipped away from looking him straight in the eyes. Im sorry.

How could this be happening? He asked, horrified and oh so confused. We used protection. And youre on birth control. He ran his hands through his hair, keeping them wrapped around the back of his head. Im sorry. I need to go to the church. and with that, he was out of there faster than a dog chasing a car. He left Brittany all alone in the auditorium. Before she walked out of the auditorium, she allowed herself to shed one tear before she had to compose herself for the public eye.

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When Sam got home from his visit to the church, he got mad. Not anyone else, but her.