trees//joshler

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"josh"

*silence*

"Josh?" Tyler whispers cautiously

asleep. Tyler slowly and gently pulls his arm from under the covers trying not to wake him up. he reached over to josh's icy pastel blue hair, stroking it away from his eyes. goddamn it he is gorgeous and Tyler had never been so in love in his life. Josh twitches, his hair falls back over
his eyes. he could feel his breath and that made him feel safe. Tyler giggles to himself. just looking at Josh makes him so happy knowing that it was him who saves his life and makes it at the same time.
Tyler realised he has been staring for a little too long now and blinks fast. weird. so silent. but a warm and busy silence, and Tyler likes that.
He gets up from their bed and makes his way quietly over to the kitchen to make them both a coffee. Tyler fills the kettle and whilst it boils, checks social media. He turns his phone on slowly. he always does this so he could see his and Josh's wedding photo on his lock screen. a tiny smile crept at one corner of Tyler's mouth.
Instagram first. he opens his recent photo of him and Josh on a Ferris Wheel. it's Tyler's favourite photo of them.

"go to hell you gay piece of crap"
"you ugly retard"
"kill yourself"

the kettle is boiled.
Tyler drops his phone on the counter.

*ignore them ignore them ignore them ignore them ignore them*

Tyler stared into the nothingness as he poured the water into the mug.

"ahh" he subconsciously whispers as he realises he poured it on himself, "that's gonna burn"
distracted again. this can't keep happening.
he wipes the water off himself and brings the coffee into their room.

"Josh I made coffeeeeee" Tyler laughs trying to disguise the fact he was in pain from the burn and the comments.

"Josh?" he says as he attempts to open the door with his back, a cup of coffee in each hand.

*silence*

tyler starts to get worried and puts down the cups, opening the door slowly just in case he's still asleep.

the bed is empty. sheets messily thrown to one side.

"Josh?"

the panic sets in.

"Josh this is not funny"

Tyler laughs again to hide his fear.

"BABE PLEASE THIS IS NOT FUNNY"

*silence*

Tyler sprints to the kitchen, picking up his phone. he sees the wedding photos.
he pauses, his mind screaming out.
Tyler is now shaking hard and crying, but he still opens his phone and calls the first person on his recents list, Josh.

"please, goddamn it please pick up" he mumbles

the phone is ringing

ringing

ringing.

Tyler's breath and heart race faster than his mind.

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*the person you have called is not available to take your cal---*

Tyler hangs up, falling to the ground and shaking violently. Josh was gone.

he goes back into their room silent.

the window is open and curtains flapping in the wind.

in his mind all he can hear is
*he doesn't love you*
*you're not good enough for him*
*he's gone*

Tyler feels sick.

where is Josh this time ?

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sup babes👼🏼
this is my first ever joshler fic yay💀
it's really dark and twisted as it goes on so I hope you don't get bored 💙
new chapter hopefully every other day✈️
until next time,
-L⛈