Baekkie, Let Me Love You. [ChanBaek COMPLETED]

17 - Loves hurts, and they exists.

17 - Loves Hurts, and They Exists.

'I'm still waking every morning but it's not with you'

3 weeks.That's the amount of time I had spent in this house, alone. With no one to wake up with, to sleep with, to laugh with or to cry with.

Sehun called all of us over to his- well his and Chanyeol's house. Wanted to tell us something apparently. I don't know what it could be but I have an idea of what the outcome would be. For me at least.

I wore a knitted grey sweater with blue jeans, the cuffed folded up to my ankle. I ruffled my hair before grabbing my keys and exiting the house. The weather wasn't as cold but it was enough to send shiver down my body. I hurriedly unlocking the car and climbed in.

The way to Sehun's house was quiet. Usually the car ride would be noisy, making the car swerve once a twice. All the source of the sounds of course comes from the one and only, Park Chanyeol. I took a deep breath and parked near the house. 5 cars were already parked nearby. Suho and Lay's shared car, Kai and Kyungsoo's shared car, Chen's and Xiumin's car and Luhan's car. Despite him not being in the group anymore, he still visits us from time to time, however Kris and Tao couldn't make it as they had schedules in China.

I got out of the car and didn't bothered to knock the door before going in. I was greeted by laughters and shril voices screaming. I laughed a little at the chaotic scene before me. "Baekhyunnie! You made it!" Sehun exclaimed and hugged me and I hugged back. "Wouldn't miss anything for my dongsaeng." I said and ruffled his hair. "Yah! I'm not a kid anymore." he pout and I just laughed at him.

My eyes scanned the room, the table was filled with foods, lots and lots of food. It landed on Chanyeol at the end, he noticed and offered me a smiled and I smiled back, painfully.

"So what is it that you want to tell us?" I asked with mouth full with food. "Yah hyung. Chew your food and swallow first." Kai said and I shrugged and shoved more food in and made a face at him. He made a face back and it went back and forth until Suhi stopped us, telling us to be quiet so Sehun could speak.

"Well, what I want to say is that I have finally found someone that filled the void in my heart." he started with a grin. "Wah, jjinja?" Chen asked and Sehun nod his head vigorously. "Who stole our maknae's heart?" I joked and everyone laughed upon hearing it.

All of our jaw dropped when he reach to hold Chanyeol's hand, clasping it before saying. "Chanyeol-hyung. Guys, meet my boyfriend." he said and Chanyeol smiled shyly. He was never good with attention being put on him sometime, he would get shy and all flustered. "Congratulation!" I exclaimed, followed by all the other members.

"Excuse me for a bit, need to pee." I laughed half-heartedly and got up to the bathroom. So he's doing fine without me. That's...good to know. At least he's happy. They look good together. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and shook my head. I can't cry. If I cry, my eyes would get puffy and my face would remain red and blotchy. I tried to refrained the tears from falling but one after the other, it falls.

I cried silently right then and there. I sat on the floor, my back against the bathroom door. I sobbed and sobbed at the pain in my heart. I just can't deal with this amount of pain. I look up the ceiling and think of how pathetic I am to cry in someone else's bathroom. So stupid. But what can I do when someone I love, is out there being claimed by someone else? What's worse is that I let him go for him to do so. But it hurts. It hurts so much to see them like that, to pretend that I'm okay and happy to see them when deep down I know I'm not. As bad as it sounds, I can't help but feel upset by the sudden news.

But what hurts the most is that, the promise he said to me. That Sehun is a friend, a brother, and that he would never like him in any other way than platonically.

After 5 minutes of full sobbing, I decided to get up and wash my face to rid the evidence of tears. I waited for few minutes, for my face to be it's original colour slightly before going out to join the others.

The celebration was indeed filled with laughters and bonding between us members, I put aside the pain in my heart and prioritised my members, whom I can call my brothers. It's better this way, I have to put a faćade to make them, our EXO-L  happy. Everyone deserves happiness, I can find mine later.

I carried my empty glass to the kitchen, however my hand was slippery and it slipped from my hand and broke into million pieces on the floor. "Cheongsamida." I said. All of them had their eyes on my as I bend down to pick the pieces up. "Oh gwaenchana. Don't pick it up, you'll hurt yourself." Sehun said.

A little too late for that as I felt a prick on my finger. Droplets of blood was seen and I bit my lip as if to make the pain subdue. "Hyung, come I'll help you." Chanyeol said and grabbed my arm towards the kitchen.

"I can do it on my own. Just give it to me." I told him and tried to grab the band aids but he moved his hand and held it high above my head. I jumped tried to reach it but nevertheless, his 6ft 11 arse is too tall for me.

I noticed he was smiling whilst looking at me struggling to reach it and he push my forehead down, and it made me sat on the chair. I scowled at him and he poked his tongue out at me. "I want to do it for you. You're always like this. You never let me tend your wounds." he said and he took out the rubbing alcohol to clean the cuts. I winced at the stinging pain and tap my feet at a quick pace to ignore the pain.

He finally wrapped the band aid on my finger and smile at it, as if he did a good job at saving something. He took it close to his lips and gave it a kiss. My eyes widened and I pulled my hand back. "Yah! You have a boyfriend!" I exclaimed and stood up abruptly. He followed in suit and frown. "But I still love you hyung, every night I cry myself to sleep remembering the words you said. How I hurt you." he spoke and I laughed bitterly.

"You're did more than just hurting me Chanyeol-ah. You showed me that love does exist. But only with the right people but sometime, we accept the love we think we deserve, and that's what our love was." I told him and left him behind.

"Hey, I have to go home. I don't feel so well." I told them and they pause their eating to look at me. "You want me to drive you home?" Suho asked and I shook my head. "Ani, it's okay. I can drive myself." I excused myself and went out to my car.