Alex Malfoy

disclaimor: I do not own Harry Potter! The only character I own is Alex Malfoy!

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Dear Tess,

Through every girls life we go through rough times, at least that's what I'm going through. I feel like I don't belong in this family of mine, as if I'm a burden to them. I am nothing like them, but I love them. Is that enouph? For me to love someone who also disgusts me? I try to love my brother like every other sister would, but it's hard. We all share differant beliefs, in most families we would look past that, but being a Malfoy that's all we care about.

I got you today, Tess, the day I was excepted to two schools, both so differant from eachother: Hogwarts and Beauxbatons. My father will never speak to me again if I choose the girls school, but my mother doesn't care. I chose Hogwarts, it will make my family accept me. They don't know my secret, never had, and they never will. They all think I share the mudblood and bloodtraitor beleifs with them, but I don't.

How could I hate someone I never met?

My father is a Death Eater, so is my mother. Soon they will force me and Draco to be one also, what will I do then? Will I obey their wishes or will I get disowned. Will that be a good thing? I could always go by a differant name, no one will look at me in such disgust and fear, the way they always look at Malfoys.

I'm sure I would get disowned anyway, there is a big chance I would end up in some house differant then Slytherin. Though I am cunning and sneaky, I have been hiding my life from my family for eleven years, that could send me on a one way ticket to Slytherin for sure.

I can't help but fear that someone will find you, Tess. What if they tell my secrets, Draco will definatley tell mum and dad, but the thing that scares me most is that I'm actually hoping someone will find you. I won't have to go through the stress of hiding all of this.

Your the only one who knows this about me, Tess. That's why I have you.

-Alex Narcissa Lucy Malfoy-

Just to inform you, Tess is Alex's Diary, I didn't want her saying Diary for the whole thing so I named the diary, vote and comment!