Comfort

See.... I thought I told you not to trust these hoes . Put everyone above this hoes . They'll say they love you but you got to remember they don't. You hear me but you

don't feel me tho . Shit ! You ain't the only one. I'm there with you living of a list of rules for a player when , in reality I'm just letting niggas have they way with me. . I'm usually the type to be about my SHIT , but then when I get home a feel a empty void that all the sex in the world couldn't fill. Alone. No one to confess to , no one to hold me , tell me I'm wanted , no one to fill this void I had for so long . I wasn't always this way . Well, I was always a player just, fucking when I felt the need. I had feelings too. I feel in love . Who ? Of course , with a another player he was everything thought he was going to change for me . I didn't mind he had a baby mama . It was whatever to me as , long as he put me first to her . It was cool . He sweeted talked me to leave home and cut off my parents that we needed to live together it would make us close and if you love me you would it. I did it all of it we lived together for about 8 months . I paid the bills, cooked ,cleaned the perfect house wife. Then one day , I was awaiting him to get home to work and give me what I need all the time . Sex! When I heard the door turn . The run to the top of the stairwell . There she was his baby mama . I questioned why was she there . When he walked in . Wtf ! Long story short he kicked me out . Now , I'm 17 1/2 , no one cares about me , I'm alonely , struggling to pay bills and still trying to keep my life together . I wish I could just find comfort in this my miserable thing I call my life .

- Nicole